I think I may have BPD (borderline personality disorder) what do you think??!

I think I may have BPD (borderline personality disorder) what do you think??

My mood changes from hour to hour. I get angry about nothing. I have a constant fear of being alone. The thought of my husband leaving for even a night to go out of town leaves me feeling abandoned. I find myself trying to detach myself from him sometimes for the fear that he's going to end up hurting me. The least little thing he says or does that rubs me the wrong way leaves me so angry I want to hit him. I have had a problem with alchohol in the past, but have left it alone recently as I'm pregnant. When my emotions get too hard to handle I have long drawn out crying spells and the urge to injure (cut) myself and most usually follow through with it. I feel empty and isolated a lot of the time. I have difficulty keeping friends and the thought of working out in the public frightens me something awful. I have frequent panic attacks that leave me feeling like the world is spinning out of control. I was sexually abused for 10 years as a child. Should I see a therapist???

hi bear, i'm so truly sorry that you are having a rough time of it.
i can identify with most that you wrote, i too have panic attacks, was molested as well, easily agitated and more of what you said. yes, you should be in treatment for this, but start with your family doctor who can give you a good exam and then make recommendations for whom you should see next. but i can tell you that you do not have BPD, BPD involves alter personalities, could be one other, or countless others. you don't describe anything like that. I believe you are depressed, have anger issues, along with your panic, your agoraphobia, fear of harm, over fearful in general. the mood changes can indicate Bipolar disorder, which i also have. the urge to injure yourself is tied with trying to 'feel something". i urge you to see your doctor as soon as possible, you need not suffer like this, there is therapy and medications to calm most of this down. which i have done. good luck! i hope this helped! :) God Bless!