Getting desperate?!

Getting desperate?

My mum has a mental condition that makes her violent an drink a lot, while im 14 and 6ft 1 so there is no physical harm being done its depressing me being shouted at constantly without being able to shout back (dad says it makes her worse) Shes been in a mental hospital and came out and while shes bad shes not bad enough to go back in.

My dad is useless i ask for help and say im depressed and he wont even get my an appointment with a doctor.

I am very very very angry, school grades are slipping and im always down and upset and if this carries on I will snap and probably cause her serious injury, I hate her and if she died i wouldn't go to her funeral, in fact I would be happier. Please what should I do?

Whoo Buddy,
Your mother is sick, she is addicted, she has problems. If she had cancer would you be mad at her?
You are 14, in some cultures that is a man. You are responsible for your own mental health.
You can be angry at her but you can't let her illness control your life.
If you need to talk, check out your schools counselor. If they can't help talk to a relative or a friends parents. Try Alateen they have programs for teens who are affected by their parents addiction.
When ones parents are not in control of themselves one has to make a decision to be healthy.
Other people have survived the situation you are in I trust you can do it too..
Have some faith in yourself, don't try to change what you cannot control. Get some support and don't let the past defeat you future.
Good luck.