I Don't Know What To Do?!

I Don't Know What To Do?

Throughout the course of my life, I have always been alone. I have always lived a life devoid of friendships and significant others. After a while, you beginn to lose hope and get the sense that this life wasn't intended for everyone, yet I'm too much of a coward to do anything to myself and continue to live due to my fear of suicide.

Waking up everyday and having no one to talk to is beginning to drive me mad. I want someone to love really badly, and have never even had something as basic as a male friend. I think this has everything to do with my physical appearance. In fact. I know it does. I'm height/weight proportionate (6', 175) and very well groomed, but I'm ugly and no one acknowledges my existence as a result.

I've gone to many bars and clubs in order to meet another guys (I'm gay, but I act like a man) but have usually wound up spending the whole night alone without anyone even acknowledging me 'cos I'm not what they want.

I don't know what to do anymore

3 weeks ago
I really don't. Do you think it's possible to have other guy friends and a guy to date if you're ugly? Would you want to live if you were ugly?

It seems as though this world could be really incredible if I were to look different. I just don't want to feel like this all of the time. There seems to be no way out.

~You can always get plastic surgery if you feel that is definitely the reason. It would be easier if you knew what part of your face needed changing, and how.
It doesn't sound like you socialize enough, you don't put yourself out there. Bars, clubs, and taverns will not produce someone good for you, in terms of a relationship. Usually people go there just to get drunk and have sex.
You aren't heavy at all, but if it makes you feel better, start walking everyday or joining the gym. It will make you feel better if anything.
I think you should seek counseling, they would probably prescribe an antidepressant. You are very depressed, since you're considering suicide. This situation is very fixable from my point of view.
Have you thought about dating women? It is lonely being alone, the elderly suffer the most from this. I feel for you, and hope that you seek help.
Good luck.~

**This guy above me is very rude. Women who are "overweight" have relationships too. The very fact that they are overweight does not automatically make them single and desperate.