Masturbation help?!

Masturbation help?

im a straight guy and i dont want to masturbate no more idk if im addicted but i dont want to be ive never even had the real thing!...it just happends, radomly i wake up "busting" and then i have to do it again for some reason i feel bad and feeling like why did i do that, its like i cant control myself from doing it, i told my self i was goin to stop like yrs ago im 17 i started when i was 12 right almost to being 13, it basically wasted my teen yrs from becasie of that being i guess i can say happy or feeling normal, i dotn masturbate with my hand i think that way is gross =\ its weird to explain how but i want to stop i need to grow up and learn to control myself, ive read the posts here about masturbation tey all say its normal its oka to do it its no sin, i need to stop it basically changed me to the wrong person there were times where i did it everyday up to 8x a day even number amount of times something is wrong with me i stress more after doing it n just thinking about doing it

1 month ago
since i would think about dirty things, i then went on the comp. and judt felt terrible doing it a few of times while on the comp., i would tell myself this is the last time i end up doing it again, overall is probably been 1000s of times...i feel like im mentally sick from that i need help my mind needs to be cleaned out from that

1 month ago
ive thought if reasons to make me stop, and read a little about it ahhhh it didnt help much there was also a time where i stopped for almost 1yr randomly i did it ad felt so bad that time after a long time tried to stop for another long time ended up again but now i come to ask for help since i never did pretty much none knows i do it but the people reading this

8 times is a lot in one day but if thats what u need to do i guess u need it that much. I mean what u could do is cut down a few and aim for like 6 times a day and then u would feel less guilty.