This is why i think i have anxiety,,, PLZ READ + COMMENT!?!
Question: i have a disease,, fibrodysplasia ossificans progressieva {or FOP} ,, so that means if i get bumped, or fall, i will grow a bone, and my jaw is already locked up so i can only open it like 2 mm seriously,, i can barely eat, i am scared of becoming fat too, so at school i have an EA or a person that helps me not get bumped, and she SUCKS! she let me fall 3 tiimes, first time, i almost broke my wrist seriously, second time i got a goose egg and third time i almost got stiches and ive moved, i used to live in the city {WINDSOR} but now i live in this town gb, and it sucks, in windsor, pplz actually liked me, here, everyone hates me, i really want to change schools,, i am soo fat {12 years old, 5'2 and weigh 87},,
Answers: i have a disease,, fibrodysplasia ossificans progressieva {or FOP} ,, so that means if i get bumped, or fall, i will grow a bone, and my jaw is already locked up so i can only open it like 2 mm seriously,, i can barely eat, i am scared of becoming fat too, so at school i have an EA or a person that helps me not get bumped, and she SUCKS! she let me fall 3 tiimes, first time, i almost broke my wrist seriously, second time i got a goose egg and third time i almost got stiches and ive moved, i used to live in the city {WINDSOR} but now i live in this town gb, and it sucks, in windsor, pplz actually liked me, here, everyone hates me, i really want to change schools,, i am soo fat {12 years old, 5'2 and weigh 87},,
Sista Girl, I really feel for you! 12 yrs old and have to carry the burden of such a sad disease. It must be truly hard. How old is this EA? Just because she has the job does not mean she is qualified! She needs to find a new field of employment! A person who is a care taker has to care enough to want to assist a person in need. Obviously she does not realize your predicament till it reaches up and strangles her by the throat!
I pray that she learns quick to change her ways. Those who pride themselves above others eventually are lead to a mightly fall! I wish I could help as you are only accross the lake. Whats really queer is that you are incapacitated in your getting around but still go out. Me I have no health problems but choose to stay in my home alone. Such a stange thing.
Fat? Who told you you were fat. I would give my eye tooth to be 87!(hopefully pounds not stones or kilos!) I'm 5'2" and weigh close to 150! So if you are fat at 87, then what would that make me?! Dont insult yourself. You are just the ideal weight for you height. Here is why: 5 feet = 100 lbs. minus 5 for small bones, add 5 for large bones. If you are average then 100 lbs. For every inch add +5. 2 inches x 5 = 100 + 10= 110 lbs. So you are underweight. One load off your mind! You might be "too heavy for someone who has to carry you but you definitely are not fat!
You think your town sucks? Obviously you have never been to detroit! Now that is the pits! Like my son told all his friends:
"It is so dirty here, all the buildings are decrepid and there are all these beggars all over the streets!" He could not wait to get back home to go to school! That was unusually for him cos he does not like school.
The only reason your dad is mad is because he is either worried about the EA quiting and then they will have to look for another one to employ. If you can get on the internet, maybe you could do the research for another and pass on to him or your mom the name of a person or agency who wants to work with you. The EA left a long time ago (emotionally). She sounds like a child. 18?,19? You need a more mature person who works because it is their profession and not a temporary hobby for the moment.
Depression hits us because we feel we cannot tolerate or deal with the circumstances/life as it is happening at the moment. It is a mind set. It can cause many a person to want to "check out" of life! Either a person is on their "death bed" waiting to die, or they are in the "waiting room" waiting to check out. You are sort of in the waiting room because you are still mobile. You can go to the movies, go for a walk, go to the picture shows, go to church, see/talk with friends. You can keep yourself "entertained" till it is your time to check out.
How you use that time while you are here is what God will later inquire of you. He will ask you: "Why did you not learn of my Son? Did you not learn how he came to heal the brokenhearted? "How would stick closer to that a brother, a friend to the very end? "Why did you not seek him? When it felt that darkness was all around you and no one understood you, why did you not ask him in?" He stands at the door(your heart) and knocks and if any person opens the door to him, he will come in and "sup" (have fellowship/comfort) with them.
Why do you not let him into your heart?
He came into mine many moons ago. There are times when those close to me have died or were taken away, people ask "how did you not lose your mind?" I would have went crazy! I just tell them the Lord my gives me strength to make it through each and every day. I just concentrate on the step I have to make each time. I dont think/worry about tomorrow or dwell on yesterday. As what I do today will help determine tomorrow and I cannot (for the life of me) change yesterday!
Will you not ask him into your heart to start a work in you?
Just pray to the Father; "Dear Heavenly Father, I feel so sad and depressed oh Lord. I wish I were dead! But you said you sent Jesus to bring me life and that more abundantly Father God, I know I can never be good enough like you, that Jesus died for my sins. To set me free from the law of sin and death. Lord I invite Jesus into my heart to wash me, cleanse me and fill me with his love. Send your Holy Spirit to heal me physically, spiritually and emotionally. Lord show yourself to me. That you will be with me through thick and thin. In Jesus name Amen."
If you have a non denominational or full gospel church in your area, start attending. That way you will learn the ways of God and make new friends. Plus you will have a pastor who will also pray for you. If you have a King James Bible or close to it, pray that God will reveal himself to you by his word as you read it. If you learn to listen to his voice he will talk to you more and more. It will be like having a friend! Morning, noon and night! Give him a try for he is more than alright!
God Bless You!
5'2, 87 pounds and you think you're fat?
::Pushes you down a flight on stairs::
Idiot.