I really feel like killing my self right now.?!
Question: I found out that I have genital herpes. I lost my virginity 3 years ago and in that three years i've only been with 4 people. low self esteem i found fell in love with some this asshole and he gave me herpes. I feel so angry at myself because I should have known better and i hate myself sooooo much. I consider myself damaged goods now, no one will want me. And i cry so much on a daily basis. I don't know how to deal and i really want to hurt myself for being so dumb to think that i could be loved. im not sure how much i can deal with this. If there is someone out there that can please shed a little light because i don't see one at the end of the tunnel.
Answers: I found out that I have genital herpes. I lost my virginity 3 years ago and in that three years i've only been with 4 people. low self esteem i found fell in love with some this asshole and he gave me herpes. I feel so angry at myself because I should have known better and i hate myself sooooo much. I consider myself damaged goods now, no one will want me. And i cry so much on a daily basis. I don't know how to deal and i really want to hurt myself for being so dumb to think that i could be loved. im not sure how much i can deal with this. If there is someone out there that can please shed a little light because i don't see one at the end of the tunnel.
Your life is so not over. When I was 22 (I'm 33 now), I got married and my husband not only gave me Herpes, he also gave me HIV. I totally thought my life was over, didn't tell anyone, not my parents, friends, anyone. For the first year, I thought I would drop dead, then realised I was young, I was in college and I had a future I wanted to see. My husband at the time decided he was just going to curl up and die, which sadly he did. I was divorced by then as I discovered he had been sleeping around and using drugs - I had had no idea. To cut a very long story short, I met my now husband 7 years ago. It was terrible having to tell him about the HIV and Herpes but he obviously had to know. I had only known him 10 days and we hadn't done anything physical together. I knew I had found a real man and the love of my life when he took me in his arms and told me he was going to stay with me. 12 years later, I am still extremely healthy, don't need any HIV medication, I excercise and eat well and stay happy in my career. I maybe get a herpes outbreak once every few years. I take Acyclovir twice a day. My husband and I have a great sex life, we always use condoms and he remains uninfected with either disease. We also have two beautiful healthy daughters. I opted for two C-sections to avoid passing on HIV or Herpes to them. I know you think life is over but the positive is that when you find the right man, he will accept you with any problems you have. If he rejects you, all that says is that he was not good enough for you. Stay positive and healthy, the better your immune system, the less outbreaks you will have. Ask your doctor about medication you can take to minimize outbreaks. Look at how from now on you will make the absolute best of your life. Chin up girl - it could be so much worse. :)
You are probably 1/4 people (according to statistics). There are lots of people around with problem like you, and this disease is controlable. Do not think about yourself as damaged goods, better look for ways to manage the disease, so you would have control on your life again.
well... i dont think you should kill yourself. cuz that would be stupid. dont worry the one for you will come!
Do you realize that more than 50% of the population has some form of Herpes?? Now what you need to do is find out how to live with it!
u will be fine....Jus Thank God that its not AIDS! alot of ppl have herpes...sooo dont worry u will be fine! goodluck
The less it bothers you the smaller the problem is. Everything always gets better and herpes, so what, thousands of people get it, youl be fine. You need a second opinion though from a professional. But you shouldnt kill yourself! thats silly, everyone makes mistakes and you shouldnt be so angy with yourself. I understand that you want to punish yourself but this way is too extreme and will lead to chaos. everything blows over and I know that you think thats impossible at the moment but it will. In time. You should do some research on what youve got, try to accept it and help yourself. And you will meet someone you can be with when you least expect it. x
just because you've erred big time once and someone infected you with an STD does not mean that you are "damaged good." it's okay to feel depressed, but not to the point of hurting yourself (as this would be even dumber!). the best thing you could do right now is get yourself treated, both physically and emotionally. there is no cure for herpes yet, but antiviral medications are available to help relieve or lessen the outbreaks. you can also take suppressive therapy to prevent transmission to future partners. anyways, these things should all be taught by a medical professional. as regards to your poor self-esteem, everybody deserves a second chance; in fact, there are lot of second chances in life. divert your attention to school and studies, social life, community--anything that can take your mind off your past mistakes. get professional help. surround yourself with people who love you. notice the smallest things/blessings that make life livable somehow. take one step at a time to make yourself feel good again. good luck!
Don't worry, if you think that you are sad, you will be
Sheesh...that disease is really treated like a morality issue.
Did you know that most people have herpes? About 90% of all American adults are infected with either HSV I or II. Most people get HSV I from their parents by being kissed by them.
When I read your post, I assumed you had HIV. Things could be worse...
i dont know why im doing this but i am like 13 and i think i have genital warts im still a virgin and i was hoping to have sex with my gf soon ive asked a question about it and im really... scared!!! i dont really want to see a doctor because im embarrassed... any advice and don't kill yourself or inflict any harm on ureself its not worth it my life is absolutely **** but people tell me im really smart and i can do well so ill do that and make my life better anyway youll figure something out it has to happen.. bad things don't happen 2 everyone...
something good is around the corner
p.s. i dont know why i told you all that or anything hopefully though it helped you... dont no how but like i said hopefully theres something around the corner ;) plz reply :)
don't hurt yourself please. over time it will get better, u will have days where u feel like your feeling now but try to get over this or u may not find anyone who wants to be with an angry self loathing person who has issues being carried around. about 20-30% of the population has genital herpes including myself so u don't need to feel alone. i know your angry at the person who gave them to u but try to let that go. finding the right guy will be kind of tough but don't beat yourself up about it. there are other people in the world who depend on you, doing this to yourself is selfish. there are porbably bigger issues and problems to focus on in your life. thinnking like that and being this way will only cause more outbreaks. i am also healthy and don't have hiv/aids or other stds. i got herpes from my bf and both of us were being monogomus for almost 3 years.
things could be worse though, thats just the price humans pay for sexual immorality....STD's, HIV, AIDS thing like that.
PLAALEEEESE HONEY YOU AINT THE FIRST AND YOU DAMN SURE AINT GONNA BE THE LAST I BET YOUR BEHIND USE PROTECTION NOW HUH !!! YA BETTER CAUSE IT COULD OF BEEN WORST