How does someone realistically change from living in fear to living with promise!
Question: How does someone realistically change from living in fear to living with promise and hope!?
I have been diagnosed with HIV for over 20 years!. I learned of my illness at a time when there was only AZT for treatment which only had worked for approximately 2 years!. I was only 21 and attending college!. At that point the nightmare began as my life turned from planning my future to planning the best way to face the end of my life!. Since then, I can only look back and see years of emptiness, fear, escape and hopelessness!. Drugs became my means of escape as I had to somehow let go of goals and dreams!. I have developed Borderline personality disorder along with Complex PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) recently and on many medications to control both my mental and physical illnesses!. I am in therapy 3 times a week, on a LOA from work, doctor visits,still escaping and live from day to day without planning!. My fear of dying has become my fear of living!. How can I turn this around!? If I was to know 20 years ago that this what I worried about missing, I could have relaxed!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
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Listen having something like HIV would be a huge life change!. I myself have borderline personality and its hard to live day to day on top of what your dealing with!. My biggest fear is death and if i was to be in your shoes i would be the same way!. But remember something you only live once!.!. enjoy it while you can!. Sure you freaked and spent the last 20 years letting go of your dreams and goals but that shouldnt stop you from living that way today!. your older now and more grown up and i mean you have lived this long you still got years to go!. Dont ruin them by looking back at the past enjoy life now do things you enjoy relax NOW!. Dont look at the past, i mean do you really want to go knowing you sepnt your whole life worrying about the future and then the past!?!? Take life for what it is and enjoy what you have left!.!.!. You shouldnt have to fear anything!.!. its life!. And like they always say bad things happen to the best of people!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com