Grieving the loss of my Mom?!

Grieving the loss of my Mom?

My Mom lost her battle to Ovarian Cancer a month ago today. Right after she past I did cry, and felt that I missed her, but part of me couldn't fully let go and release my emotions. I still think I was in the 'staying strong mode' - like how I was when I was by her side as she battled this merciless disease. My sister and I kept saying, we're sad now, but everyone around us is falling apart. Is there something wrong with us? A few people have said that one day it will really hit you -- like you ran into a brick wall.. and then you crumble. I did the Relay for Life on Friday and was so pround of myself, as were others. But, yesterday and today (the 1 month annivresary of her death) I feel tons anger, and great sadness. I'm wondering if it is truly hitting me now. I was doing so well. Do you think that I am regressing? Or do you think that it is normal that I'm feeling this right now -- after I thought I was doing okay.

I am a Mom, and a cancer patient. I personally would like to thank you for caring for another with cancer. I KNOW how hard it was for you to watch. I see that same look in my children's eyes. You are NOT alone in your grief. I am here, a mama who understands, and you may email me whenever you feel the need. I will answer always. We moms stick together.

There are three stages of grief, just like there are stages of accepting a terminal illness. The first stage is denial or (numbness) because you just can't believe it's really true. The second is anger (where you are at now) at the cruelness of this disease and the fact that she has passed. The third stage is acceptance (knowing it happened and that you can't change it no matter how bad you want to). Once you reach the final stage, which will come when you least expect it, you will start to come to the "other side" of grief. You will be able to think about your mama with smiles instead of tears. I pray that comes soon for you dear. Remember that she loved you with all her heart and would have stayed with you forever if she could have. She will remain in your memory and heart forever. Cancer can't take your memories of her, EVER. When you get sad, go ahead and cry. It helps. When you need to talk...reach out sweetie, we are here. Your mom just may have put us in your path. :0)