Eating problems...?!
Question: ok...im 16 and i weigh 7st6 and am 5ft 7 (nearly). i know that i am very very underweight for my height and my bmi comes out at around 16/17. my only problem is that last year after i had a really bad arguement with my parents and my dad beat me up i turned to bullemia, anorexia and cutting myself up. i know now that it was stupid but i couldnt cope. i also ran away that night. i came back early in the morning with yet more arguements. my only problem is that at that time i lost 2st and i just cant put it back on again. when i find things too stressful i slip back into doing all 3. last time i cut myself was a couple of weeks ago because my dad beat me up and id made a promise to my kind of bf that i wouldnt do that and i havent since even when my dad strangled me. but at the minute im really struggling with eating properly. i promised the same guy that i wont make myself sick and im eating properly. i feel more awake from it but i feel constantly sick after eating. how do i stop this?
Answers: ok...im 16 and i weigh 7st6 and am 5ft 7 (nearly). i know that i am very very underweight for my height and my bmi comes out at around 16/17. my only problem is that last year after i had a really bad arguement with my parents and my dad beat me up i turned to bullemia, anorexia and cutting myself up. i know now that it was stupid but i couldnt cope. i also ran away that night. i came back early in the morning with yet more arguements. my only problem is that at that time i lost 2st and i just cant put it back on again. when i find things too stressful i slip back into doing all 3. last time i cut myself was a couple of weeks ago because my dad beat me up and id made a promise to my kind of bf that i wouldnt do that and i havent since even when my dad strangled me. but at the minute im really struggling with eating properly. i promised the same guy that i wont make myself sick and im eating properly. i feel more awake from it but i feel constantly sick after eating. how do i stop this?
I think you should talk to someone. Honestly, you are lucky to have a close guy (almost boyfriend like) to talk to, and as I can see, it slightly helps.
I have a friend who is going through almost EXACTLY the same problem. She promised me she wouldn't cut herself, yet she cut herself a week or two ago, because she had problems at home.
It's a great sign you are eating properly... but I think the main problem is the way your dad is treating you.
Running away never helps. My friend (girlfriend kind of) ran away, but you will always end up at home again, because you are far too young to live alone, as much as you want to.
When I say to my friend to see somebody, she would say "NO!" because she fears she can't. But it really will help to talk to somebody.
You are only sick because you feel like you are forcing yourself to eat, because of your friend.
Take your time in eating, don't scoff yourself (I'm sure you don't, because you have low weight, but it's nothing too extreme, so that's a good sign!).
Don't eat between meals, but eat Breakfast, Lunch, and Dinner to make sure you are keeping a routine. Over time, you won't feel as sick. Also, are you drinking enough water?
I feel for you, and I'll pray that your dad will stop his actions.
I hope this helped, and if it makes you feel better, I am 15 years old, turning 16 soon, so I understand your feelings at your age.
Don't worry, and take things slow. You are lucky to have a close friend to promise things. Don't get down if you accidentally break your promise, as it isn't your fault.
I hope this helped!
EDIT:
Hey that's fine! Its great that your (almost bf) is helping you, and you are lucky to have him.
You are most likely to feel sick because you have the URGE to not eat, cut yourself etc. but you are held back because of your friend. In a way, that is a good thing, because it stops self harm, and self discipline, but it makes you feel terrible.
Just don't worry, and keep sending me messages to tell me how it's all going... and make sure you keep friends with this guy - he is really helping you!
One of the best quotes I tell my friend when she is in problems:
"Time will fix Everything."
Keep this up, keep eating healthy, lay low on the self harm, and over time, you will get used to it and feel better.
In the mean time, just know that there's always somebody to help you, especially this guy... and I'll be praying for you! =D
(Message me whenever you feel like! I'd love it!)
Cutting yourself, eating or not is all related it is just like smoking it is an addiction with side effects. Admit to someone who will help you all your problems that you are experiencing and ask them to help you. Tell your bf you want help. You may need some sort of counseling for an abusive father but try and find something that gives you the more awake feeling without any need for regret.