I cant think rational about food anymore?!

I cant think rational about food anymore?

Hi,

to cut a long story short i have suffered with bulimia and now go through periods where i will eat very little. i cant seem to think rationally about food anymore or eat anything without thinking how bad it is for me, cus it seems nothing is good for you anymore! i lost a lot of weight the past few months, i dont eat fatty food and eat very little chocolate, infact i wouldnt eat 1 whole bar at a time, i eat weetabix in low fat milk and banna for breakfast, maybe a sandwich for lunch, consisting of a slice of brown bread and ham (no butter) during the day i might eat one or two small apples and a low fat yogurt, tea i would have some meat ..usually chicken or turkery with a salad....the only time i think i reaaaaallly commit a sin is when i sometimes have a bowl of sultana bran or weetabicx in the evening....

it feels like no matter what you do the scales are determined by what you eat no matter how small, like fruit has sugar in it, cereal, full of carbs, i dont know what...

3 days ago
..to do anymore, it seems like nothings right!!!

3 days ago
i see a counsellor already as i have other issues, my doctor is aware and i am being sent to a psychiatrist..do i need to add dietician on there too!

Hi

I'm exactly in the same situation as u are and i can honestly say that i am sooooo sick (no pun intended) of having my whole life revolved around food. My problem is boredome god forbid when i have nothing to do i just binge. Though this month i've managed to try and change this outlook on food and i feel like the best thing that works with me is to binge on fruit. Each time your about to relapse instead of binging on junk which i used to always do then get rid of it after, i just eat as much fruit as i can, because the sugar in fruit is natural not fatning and the carbs of fruit are easily and quickly absorbed by your metabolism which will help a lot (pesonal expirience) as due to the eating disorder will have made it very slow and sluggish. Also u'l find that youl be going to the bathroom alot more for your no. 2's (gross i knw)

All i'm saying is that even though i dont i'll think about food as just food anymore but more like an obsticle i can still try and control behaviour towards it. I still binge and purge every now and then but not 2 o 3 times a day like before,only when im really depressed. Its not easy but babysteps. Thats all i can say. So just remember you can have fruit and vegetables mostly greens because they dont make you fat. My outlook is to try and aim to not think about "not getting fat" but more in terms of "if i eat healthy then how can i get fat?" so thats keeping me going just now.

please give it a try and if you need to talk to me just e-mail me and i can get ur msn or sumthn k

sash332@yahoo.co.uk