I feel fat : /?!

I feel fat : /?

I have had low self esteem my whole life, and it has effected how I think of my body.. When I look in the mirror, all I see is a fat person, and I can feel it too. I don't know how though, everyone says I'm skinny or average or whatever, but I feel fat and overweight..I'm 14, 5'7" and i weigh 124, with a size 6 jeans, (medium struct.)I don't know how I can ever think good about myself feeling this way. I go for walks every day with my dog, lasting about 30-45 minutes. Doesn't really seem to help though lol just keeps my mind off of things for a while..I've thought about not eating. And I got past the whole belemic part. I used to do track in March though, and ended at the end of May, didn't really help me much though. I hated running but forced myself to do it lol, just so I could have the perfect body.. The one that has bones and pelvic bones sticking out. My parents don't really seem to care much. And we can't really afford a psyciatrist or a therapist or anything atm. Help? advice?

4 days ago
sorry for the really long post guys lol.

4 days ago
i know im average, but i think i look bigg..

Just keep on walking, you dont have to jog-jogging works out your heart, walking works on burning fat. And do not starve your self, when you starve your self you lose muscle instead of losing fat so the end result is that you still look the same but at a lower weight which is of no use. Just diet right it's not hard at all just eat good food like chicken, fish, eggs, stuff that is kinda high in protein, so that when you are doing cardio you dont lose your muscle just the fat. The heilther food you eat the better your going to feel anyways. Well i hope this helped you a little bit. Good luck.