Adderall Is Making Me Go Crazy?!
Question: I dont take it on weekends. On monday and tuesday wehn i take my 40 mg doseage I have a great mood. Wednesday, is a alrigth mood, and thursday and friday I dont have my "good mood". Because of this, every tuesday night I freak out trying to think why its like this, then wednesday night, and thrusday night. So I plot it out, I try to see why good days (mon,tue) are good. And why the rest are "bad". I noticed that the SAME stuff happens. I guess I just notice the bad things on the otehr days. Now Im starting to think that the first week I took adderall thursday and friday might have been bad. Making me think tolerance is to blame and from then on thought so. Im nearly 100% sure that this is my mind tricking its self, yet I cant prove to myself that thursday's and fridays are no different. If I think that these days are gonna suck then the "good mood" effect wont happen! How can I prove to myself that those days are no different. Give me some tolerance facts, or other facts for proof.
Answers: I dont take it on weekends. On monday and tuesday wehn i take my 40 mg doseage I have a great mood. Wednesday, is a alrigth mood, and thursday and friday I dont have my "good mood". Because of this, every tuesday night I freak out trying to think why its like this, then wednesday night, and thrusday night. So I plot it out, I try to see why good days (mon,tue) are good. And why the rest are "bad". I noticed that the SAME stuff happens. I guess I just notice the bad things on the otehr days. Now Im starting to think that the first week I took adderall thursday and friday might have been bad. Making me think tolerance is to blame and from then on thought so. Im nearly 100% sure that this is my mind tricking its self, yet I cant prove to myself that thursday's and fridays are no different. If I think that these days are gonna suck then the "good mood" effect wont happen! How can I prove to myself that those days are no different. Give me some tolerance facts, or other facts for proof.
Is there a way that you can not keep track of the days? I know taht sounds cranky, but it seems that the more that you keep track of the days, the more that you get into the idea that things are going to go a set way. If you can figure out a way to just get it out of your mind that it is WEd. or Thurs. or Fri. then, maybe you won't get caught up in your own mind. But the truth is, you need to tell yourself that it IS all in your mind and that you are not going to let your mind rule you in the first place. That you are going to have a good day, it doesn't matter what day it is. IF it is Wed. then say to yourself, okay mind, I am going to have a good day I don't give a darn what you think or say. I am in charge here. You are only along for the ride. hehhe And, no matter what I had to do, I would have a good day on Wed. If you are capable of breaking the cycle on one day, then you will know that it is only what you are thinking, not what is the truth and the medication, right?? So, just try it!!! It cannot hurt with the problems it is giving you now.
Sharon