I think im suicidal.....?!
Question: I've gone through a lot in the past year... and I ended up cutting for a long time. I stopped.. mostly, and a lot of the time I still really want to do it but what I used to use, my mom took and everything else pretty much possible to use.. Lately I've felt especially worthless, i've thought about ways to kill myself and I've made mental plans for every little detail about it.. I was in therapy for a while but I stopped going after a few months. What exactly am I supposed to do? I dont want my parents to think im a freak... or my friends or anything..
Answers: I've gone through a lot in the past year... and I ended up cutting for a long time. I stopped.. mostly, and a lot of the time I still really want to do it but what I used to use, my mom took and everything else pretty much possible to use.. Lately I've felt especially worthless, i've thought about ways to kill myself and I've made mental plans for every little detail about it.. I was in therapy for a while but I stopped going after a few months. What exactly am I supposed to do? I dont want my parents to think im a freak... or my friends or anything..
I went through a suicidal phase in my life (round about 14-15) and I was luckily able to deal with my problems. I found that when I was alone, I got suicidal thoughts--so I tried to socialize a bit more, and it helped quite a lot. Just find a hobby, or anything that will keep you busy. It helped me, hopefully it can help you.
You should not feel ashamed or like a freak for asking for help. Confide in your parents and make sure you're getting lots of sleep, exercise, and sunshine.
You just need to find a therapist that you LIKE. And COMMIT to it.
well, to tell you the truth, my best friend cut herself, she grew up abused, in foster home, sexually harassed, and is now living with her grandparents. she used to cut herself everyday, and when she would come to school, i would see the marks on her forearm, and they were red, meaning recent. id tell her i don't like her doing that, and she really wouldn't take me seriously. now this past summer i moved to Cincinnati, so obviously I've only known her for this school year, but that was enough to get through to her. i sat her down and asked her and begged her to stop. when i asked her why she did it, she just smiled, and said " i don't know, its like I'm cutting away my troubles". i explained to her that there are better ways to relieve pain. now, i know you said you don't cut yourself anymore, but the fact that you're thinking of ending your life is bad enough. basically what I'm trying to say, is tell your VERY best friend, someone you know deep down inside wont like you less, wont be disgusted or ashamed, but someone who wants to help. i know you don't want them thinking you're a freak, but a true one, wont.
You are not a freak. A lot of people feel this way, they just have a good way of hiding it. Don't feel useless and depressed. There is a reason you were put on this earth and life is a gift that some people mistakingly take for granted. Find something that makes you happy. A craft, hobby, t.v. show and do it. Nothing harmful to yourself, but something that will bring you positive vibes. Try hanging out with your friends and doing things that you like. You have friends for a reason, they like being around you. Suicide does not only end your precious life but it takes away someone special from other people. Don't put the ones close to you through that. If you ever get the urge to I would continue counseling. Sometimes it can seem drawn out and ackward but in the long run it is helpful.
priest, therapist, counselor, friend, sibling, ANYONE. dude-you have to talk to someone. stop worrying about what they think, you won't be able to hear the nice things if you are dead. try anything else but please at least put off making a decision until tomorrow. and then do the same thing tomorrow until you no longer have the urge. please talk to someone.