What disorders are these disorders?!

I was wondering if I have some disorders!.

I have intrusive thoughts uncontrollably!.
I hate the fact on contamination!.
I'm afraid of catching a disease by touching a door handle!.
I do things repetitively!.
I count things!.
I'm afraid of certain things such as heights,being alone,!.!.!.!.!.
I'm pull my hair!.
I pick the skin off of my lip!.
I afraid of germs ad diseases!.Mostly illnesses!.
I'm afraid that someone is after me sometimes!.
I get scared easily!.
I pick scabs!.
I broke my mom's glass table because she was out and we were talking on the phone and she hung up on me while I was trying to tell her that I wanted a milkshake!.
I get really mad easily!.
I get butterflies in my stomach for no reason!.
I pray for every little bad thought that I have in my head!.
I like being alone!.
I am really sensitive!.
I am sometimes really depressed over nothing!.
I get depressed over thins that haven't even happened yet!.
I cry over things that haven't happened yet!.
When I take a bath,I continually keep washing my skin!.
I also keep putting soap on the pouffe again and again!.
I have certain numbers that I don't like!.
I believe in bad and good numbers as well as good and bad letters!.
I used to cut myself!.
I count how many words I put in a sentance,I count how many times I've did something!.
I also get stressed too!.
I also put myself down a lot!.
I think that I am fat even though everyone else says that I am skinny!.
I get mad over stupid things sometimes!.
I can't stop thinking bad thoughts!.
I also stay up really late or used to a week ago!.
Some nights,I wouldn't even go to sleep!.
I got my schedule back on track but during the summer,I stay up at least until 5:00 a!.m or all night!.Around those times!.
What I mean is that I like being alone at which means that I like to stay to myself but I don't like being at home alone or anything!.

What is all of this!?

I am really smart though!.

I'm not making this up!You guys are being mean!.I really do this stuff!.I'm not sure why!.But I need to know if I should see someone about it!.

I'm being very serious here!This is not a joke or else I wouldn't have posted it!.No rude answers!.Please answer my question with respect and honesty!.Thank you!

I guess do want OCD or something because it makes me different but I feel like I'm crazy for doing all of these things which makes me feel bad and stuff!.I really do this stuff!.

I look up this stuff on the internet and say "I should do this because I want a disorder!."But it's not just that,I find myself doing these things uncounsciously!.So I really do think that these are more than wants!.I think that they are disorders!.I find myself doing these things even when I don't want to!.I don't want to be crazy though and that's how I feel!.At first,I looked the disorders up on the internet and started doing these things so that i could have a disorder!.But now it's way more serious,I have bad thoughts when I don't want to,I pull my hair when I don't want to!.Is this what I deserve for wanting it in the first place!?Al of this stuff is quite torturing now!.Is this what I deserve!?I feel so bad now!.

I repetitively do things because I there's a certain number of times that I do stuff!.I can't stop having bad thoughts!.I pull my hair even when I know that I shouldn't and even when I don't want to!.I used to couldn't fall asleep even when I was sleepy!.I don't know how to stop all of the depression!.

So not only did I want this stuff when I looked it up on the internet,I actually developed it!.How!?I don't know!.But I'm not making this up,I actually do this stuff because at first I looked it up on the internet and started doing the stuff so that I could have a disorder but now I do this stuff without even wanting to!.But should I see a doctor!?

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