What is wrong with my memory and cognitive functions!?!?!

I'm a 27 years old male and I have never had a clear thought in my life. I have never done drugs and I eat healthy and exercise regularly. I have always had cognitive and memory issues as long as I can remember. I was always afraid to go to the doctor in fear that there would be something wrong and I could not afford all the payments to get it fixed.

There seems to be a deep heavy fog that invades my very thoughts and I cannot for the life of me function or concentrate or retain information very well. It's not a pain, but there has always been this constant feeling in the center of my brain, sort of like a low-mild headache that does not allow me to function normally or have any clear thoughts and will not go away with aspirin.

To best describe my issues, let me share with you some of the symptoms I always experience:

-Am always focusing on this feeling in my brain rather than others things and people around me which causes me to always make dumb mistakes.
-Have trouble forming complete thoughts.
-Can't keep up in conversations/can't think of anything to say EVER. I'm very awkward (this results in me having social anxiety)
-Problems with critical thinking, problem solving, and decision making or will take me an eternity to do so.
-Sluggish thinking.
-Not very many thoughts go through my head (feel like my mind is blank all the time).
-No opinions, creativity, or personality.
-When I do talk, it doesn’t make sense a lot of the time and it's not very fluent.
-Verbal communication skills are not very good.
-It takes reading something 3-4 times over before I can begin to retain it.
-When answering the phone and asking who this is, I would have to ask again immediately after because I just forgot it.
-If I were to make cereal and were beginning to put the milk away, I would stop myself because I would realize I was just about to put the milk in the cupboard where the cereal box would go because I just went blank.
I will go blank trying to remember simple words. Sometimes I will say that big body of water, when I was trying to say ocean because I went blank for that split second.


I have never been diagnosed, but I have battling depression since my early teens too. I just feel indifferent to everything and everybody and don’t feel like doing anything even though I have so many passions I want to pursuit.

Basically I feel like someone kidnapped by brain. I'm sure everyone who knows me probably thinks I'm a dumbass. Everything I do and say is wrong. I feel so stupid all of the time. It affects my job performance and personal life.
Has anyone here ever experienced or is currently experiencing this and know how to cure this? Is there something wrong internally that is causing this to happen?

Please help me. I want my mind back.