What is going on with me :( ?!
Question: What is going on with me :( ?
**PLEASE READ IT THROUGH, THIS IS SERIOUS, IT'S LONG BUT I COULD NOT MAKE IT ANY SHORTER**
Ok everyone, so here my 'situation'.
For the past couple of months, let's say since September 2010 of last year I've been feeling down, totally weird, anxious, I don't know. A mix of emotions go through my head everyday. It's odd.
So my life got totally better after I graduated college, I got a nice job, so I have a decent salary, etc .. bla bla bla ..
Last September I started going out more than I usually do, like to concerts and stuff, but when it's over, I get back home and I feel like sh** basically, thinking "oh this night was so much fun and here i am back home again" ... I don't know, it's like I don't want the good/fun moments to ever end.
What hits me the most is right after a concert, I think to myself "this was so good and now it's over how sad", and also whenever I drive to a different city, I get back to my city and I'm like "blaaahh I'm back in here" - I love the city where I live but I've been feeling so odd.
Also, I find myself wicked anxious before I go to work, let's say one day or two days before work. I get through my days of working get home and thank God for my job, etc ... But then I go back to that same 'odd weirdness' like ...
****** I'm might even be going on vacation somewhere nice for a few days, and I'm not one tiny bit excited about it.
********* i also might be going to another concert, and all I can think about is it being over, and me not being able to see that person perform again ... I don't know how to explain it.
CAN ANYONE PLEASE HELP ME UNDERSTAND WHAT IS GOING ON ?!
PLEASE I WOULD APPRECIATE IF NO MEAN ANSWERS CAME UP, I TRULY NEED TO HEAR ANYTHING FROM ANYONE OUT THERE, WHO MIGHT BE GOING THROUGH THIS OR DID GO THROUGH THIS IN THE PAST.
Thank you so much.
Answers:
I know u really want an answer so I might as well try. I go through something like this. I cant explain it, but its a little different. What I tell myself after concerts etc. is that theres nothing stopping me seeing them perform again, so I can make it happen if i want to. Thats what I always tell myself. Its like a comfort thing, u need to know that u have the power to do whatever u want or go wherever u want whenever u want
i used to feel this this, and still do from time to time. i was diagnosed with severe depression disorder. if your feeling this this on a regular basis, id try talking to someone about it, maybe your gp? could perhaps suggest and arrange councilling sessions for you. me personally, i found citalapram a great help.
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