I just all around hate myself. Advice? :/?!


Question: I just all around hate myself. Advice? :/?
I'm 16 yrs. old and I have such low self-esteem. I HATE the way I look. I hate my hair, my abnormally spaced eyes, my pale white skin, my abnornally big red lips, my grossly skinny body, and my puffed out cheekbones. Whatever I try to do to my appearance, fails. I have very little friends. No girls besides my nagging, bitchy, and controlling girlfriend like me. I don't do well in school because I have a severe learning disability, and I can barely even focus. My parents are extremely strict. People make fun of me. I don't take an interest in anything because I'm not athletic, or even good at anything. I hate my personality, I act gay even though I'm not. I have bad OCD that I can barely even control when it comes to some things. I just all around don't like who I am. I've considered suicide but I'm not positive that's what I wanna do. I've tried therapy but me simply talking to someone isn't gonna help the way I think about myself. If anyone could give some advice, that'd be nice. I don't even care about myself. I don't even care if I become addicted to cigarettes, become a pothead, or an alcoholic. I've tried having an open attitude many times, but whenever I try to, something goes wrong. And I know you're probably saying "Oh, everyone goes through it in high school." No they don't. No one in their right mind should have this attitude. Right now, my view on things are, life sucks, and then you die. :/

Answers:

Actually, everyone does go through it. Some worse than others. Im promise!
I am 23 years old. I have been outta school for almost 5 years, and to this day, still hate it. The absolute worse time of my life. I had low self-esteem because when I was 3 I had lung cancer and the treatment from that stunted the growth on my left side [breast, shoulder blade, and collar bone]. Not to mention, I had a huge hideous scar across my back from when I had the lung tumor removed. So, I felt like a freak because I was so different. My chin is abnormally pointy, and people use to call me Jay Leno because of it. I laughed it off, but it hurt my feelings. I wasnt popular at all. Never had a boyfriend or anyone even interested. There were rumors about me. And there was this one girl that constantly bullied me. She would call me a whore and everything else. She'd harass me online, and then she started bumping into me on purpose at school in the halls. Just her alone made me want to kill myself. I didnt play sports. I didnt go to parties. And I failed a few classes my sophomore year because I just gave up. I considered killing myself. I began cutting. Then, I started experimenting with pills. Most of my sophomore/junior year I came to school high off Vicodin. I drank and mixed pills... I just gave up. I dealt with sexual abuse when I was younger, so as a result of that, I became promiscuous. I let people use me, and the more it happened the worse I felt about myself.
My advice is to start better-ing yourself now before you fall so far down that it will take you years to pick yourself back up. You have to do a lot of self discovery. Think of something you really like to do. For me, it was writing. Seek help from a counselor and dont just settle on one. Once you find a good counselor, the therapy works. I have been seeing a counselor since I was 16. I've been through many to find the one, but it was worth it because the woman I have now is absolutely amazing! If you have a counselor that isnt working, then you need to let them know so they can find you someone else. You should work on liking yourself for the way you are. Its not easy, and its not going to happen overnight, but I promise you, things get SO much better once you discover who you are. And being 16 is such a crazy age. I remember being 16, and I remember thinking all the same things you do. Everyone in High School is insecure. The reason bullies are who they are is because they are insecure with themselves. You've probably heard that numerous times, but its true. Think of a time you made fun of someone, and then analyze it. When someone bullies you, analyze it. Doing that will help you. You'll see how ridiculous people are. Girls in High School are so afraid of what people think of them, that they wont be who they really are. So, there might be someone are your school that likes you or thinks your cute, but wont admit it because she is afraid of what people are going to say. Thats why High School sucks. No one takes time to get to know eachother, and everyone is judgmental and easily influenced.
Once you get out of school, you realize so many things about people and who they really are. You also realize how AWESOME karma is. The jerks I went to school with are still living with their parents, and either dont have a job, or have a job that nobody would want. And I am married, have a son, and live in a completely different state. I have a home, two brand new cars, and nice things. In other words, Im better off than they are. When I was 16 I never would have guessed that in 7 years I would be where I am now.
Don't give up. And believe people when they tell you it gets better, because it really does. It doesnt feel like it now, but you also have to realize that your way of thinking changes as you get older and mature. I know exactly how you are feeling and I wish there was a way that I could get you to believe me, because I know you don't. I didnt believe anyone when they use to try to drill it into my head. I always thought, "they dont understand" "they dont know what Ive gone through" 'they're just trying to say anything to make me feel better"
There is a project called "It gets better", and there are almost 12,000 videos of people talking about their experiences, and how their lives have improved. A lot of them are gay people explaining their "coming out" experiences, but the point really is that one day you will begin to except yourself and realize that life is much easier when you do. You can't love anyone until you learn to love yourself.

http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=it+gets+better+project&suggested_categories=29%2C22%2C25&page=2



life doesnt really matter. just fade away.......................



You need to get happy. Join a sport or club you might enjoy. This will give you something to look forward to and you may meet some friends too.
Get a haircut, it always makes me feel better. Paint your nails and pamper yourself one weekend, it will make you feel pretty.
Try to smile about something everyday and remember you are not alone. Keep your chin up.
I had a hard time in highschool but it doesn't last forever. It is tough but you can make it through.



well just so u know im not floyd im his girlfriend umm but i was kinda the same way n school so i started smoking up had better outlook on myself n honstly i consentrated alot more so my grades started to pick up too n wwith the controlling gf **** her she probably some of your prob n u dont even know it her constant bitching at u or around u can cause alot of stress and feeling toward ur self that u didnt feel once b4 i mean ur 16 its time to go out party make friends do **** that pisses ur parents off be your self not the person they all expect u to be honstly the unexpected maybe what helps u out now to the topic of murdering yourself because at the end of the day thats what it is even though it is your life that is the most selfish thing one could ever do you taking away from the whole world when u decided to be a alil ***** n go out that way i mean now u may not b thinkn this way but what if n the future ur meant to have children n u kill urself there goes the only chance them unborn babies have, but back to the begining n yes i know i jump around alot lol but i have smoked pot for over 8years im now 23 n yes i have been smoking since i was 14 or 15 when i started n it really has helped me im not saying it will u and just so u know its not addictive but i hope that things straighten out. if u need to talk jus hi me bac on this thing n i give u my actual email addy.. keep ya head up

my head bitches..




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