Suicide.....`?!

Suicide.....`?

i have been contemplating suicide for the past couple months. Now that i have thought about it so much, I kind of see it as my best option. I don't want to do it for shock value and i don't want my attempt to be unsuccessful. I just don't want to deal with life anymore. I feel like I am causing my family pain because i'm in such a bad mood all the time and i don't think i will ever be like my old self again. The only problem is that i don't want to hurt my family more by killing myself. My plan is to move out (im 16) and just slowly die. Maybe live a couple more months then overdosing on some random drug so it looks like i didn't mean to kill myself. I was also thinking about just driving my car at like 100 mph into a wall or something so it would look like a car accident but i would rather not chose this option. Please don't try to talk me out of killing myself. I just want to know of a low pain way to die that i can make look like an accident.

1 week ago
I have tried getting help. Only problem is, it doesn't help.

1 week ago
I know you are all just trying to help but i have already decided on whether or not i will kill myself. I Just haven't decided on how.

It's funny. the way you explain your situation, it sounds like something i wouldve written at that age. i thought through some different scenarios, and i ended up deciding to blow off some of that steam by taking up some high risk/ adrenaline junkie type hobbies. My reasoning was that I wouldnt be deliberately killing myself, but if it was meant to be I was definitely leaving some room for it to happen. I'm 21 years old now, and i guess it was therapeutic because i realized how hard I instinctually fought to survive in panic situations. THings get better kid, take it from me.. just dont take anything seriously. Its a stupid game but you can still have fun if you play to win.