Eating disorder........?!

Eating disorder........?

I'm 23 and I used to be bulimic, well, it was a mixed eating disorder with some elements of anorexia in that I starved myself, but then maybe once a week I would binge then induce vomiting. It was a problem for 18 months but I got on top of it about a year ago now and haven't binged/purged since.

Recently though, I've been having really strong urges to binge again, and whenever I eat a meal or feel "full" I have to really fight not to go and make myself sick. I've put on a little bit of weight over the past few months and everyone is really happy about it except me, they all say I look much better and healthier now, but I feel fat and disgusting and I want to lose it again.

I never had any formal help with it before, I kept it a secret from pretty much everyone except a couple of very close friends, my parents don't know about it.

I don't know what to do, I don't want to talk to my parents but I think I need help with this before it gets bad again.

I would suggest to make yourself better to see a doctor and tell them everything . A doctor cannot tell anyone your problems so if you cant tell anyone tell your doctor and i hope it works out for you.