I really need some help please !! please!!?!

I really need some help please !! please!!?

well on wensday i smoked marijuana and well when i did it i was recovering from a stomach flu and that whole day i had not eaten and this stuff was supposed to be like strong stuff..and i was weak that day...and well i that whole day(i did it at 4) i was feeling high and then like the next day i was still feeling real weird so i finally i had to ask my mom to take me to the hosspital(she was so dissapointed)and when i got to the emergency room the doctor told me that it was o\.k but the was marijuana in my system and well he said to wait it off and he prescibed mediceine so that when i feel axcious i would take it......and well i was feeling then i started calling help lines the day before yesterday and the told me to just relax so i did...but now its been 4 days after i smoked the stuff and im feeling weird like when i do something i forget things real quick..like short term memory loss and i feel pressure on my forhead..and like there are times when im o.k then i think about......

4 weeks ago
something about what im feeling and stuff like i start feeling all anxious and scared and my heart starts beating faster...and like i just took a pill and i hope that works...im only 15! i dont wanna feel this way anymore! and i will never do drugs again!
but like i feel like im not here but i am and i cant remember thingsi just did...like if im sitting down and i get up like as i do something it will be like im only partly there then when i get back and sitdown like sometimes ill feel like if i didnt do anything but...i dont know if this is gonna make sense but this is the was i feel
i dont remember what i just did but i know i did it then ill start remembering what i did..but it will be like i did it a while ago...but my body moves normally and i speak normally but it feels so weird...and im not addicted! i only did this like a few times and this strong stuff i only did it twice! and i wont ever do it again!
why do i still feel like im not here and like why do i forget stuff i....

4 weeks ago
just did!
please i need some advise!

and i notice that im crying at anything that sad or makes me think about stuff.....im alotmore emotional

and even when im not feeling anxcious....i still feel out of it......and when i get up like i walk but my body feels weird

and i am a vegetarian...and i havent been eating all that well in the opast few days......since wensday...when i smoked the stuff : [

4 weeks ago
oh and i havent done the drug since wensday and im not planniing on ever doing it again!

Wow... my heart goes out to you. I never really got a whole lot into drugs, but I used to do some stuff and the whole there, not there, part way there, is part of a drug thing. Sometimes though, when we're fighting to stay on top of things, like battling any type of addiction or fighting off any kind of unhealthy emotion or behavior, the devil tries so hard to discourage us and make us feel like we have to give in to whatever it is that he's putting before us. I used to be a cutter, and actually, what you're describing, sounds more like when I was fighting to be free from that than dealing with drugs. Obviously, cutting could not be physically addicting, but I was emotionally addicted to it, and that's where the devil played with my mind. You'll experience all kinds of weird things and stuff that will confuse you and make you feel crazy and hopeless, but stick it out and hang in there. I know from experience that time is just about the biggest factor. The more time between you and it, the easier things get. The absolute biggest is the will to FIGHT!! If you're not willing to fight, than rest assured, you will go down. Things like this take a determination to fight with everything within you. Half-heartedness does not stand a chance. So... I wish you the best of luck!! Hope I've helped!
~Becky N.~