Feel like hurting/ killing someone,, helpp?!

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Doonie
Please go straight to one of your tutors and tell them exactly what you have typed above - if you are able to it would be even better to show them this. You need help immediately which is why you have posted this question here. If you go to one tutor and they do not listen go to another. Better still go straight to your Head Teacher immediately. Just go up to your teacher right now! Say to them, "I need help right now - please get someone to take me to the Head Teacher". If they say to you it can wait until after class tell the person "NO! I need help right now." If the staff at school are not helpful then go to a relative or just dial the emergency services. Explain to them how you feel. Tell them what you typed here and tell them you need help right now.
I am not going to tell you that your school members are not looking at you - everyone looks at each other. However, when you are depressed a few seconds feels like a whole minute or two. So if someone glances at you for a few seconds you believe they are staring at you for minutes. Also, they may be looking at you because they see that you are not well and have noticed that you are not feeling well. They are maybe just looking because they feel concerned but just don't know what to do to help you. How about picking the next 5 people who look at you and choosing one of them to tell them exactly how you are feeling and ask them to take you to the Head Teacher. You must get some help and do it right now. Just because you are feeling depressed it does not mean you are crazy - far from it - there are so many people who are suffering from depression so you are not alone although I know you are feeling alone right now. It is unlikely for guys to feel attracted to you while you are feeling so low and depressed so try not to focus too much on that right now. Get yourself well so that when people look at you, you can smile back at them. What is this pain you are feeling inside you. Is it because your parents have split up? Is it because you don't have a steady boyfriend/partner? Talk about it with your Head Teacher so they can get you professional help from a Doctor and counsellor. Talk about it here as well so that others can help you. You DO NEED someone to talk to. You may need to take some sort of medication for a while. You do need to have some counselling to help you to cope with all of this. You must take the steps to get this help. If you don't ASK for help you will not receive help. You have asked for help here but we are limited here on how we can help you. You need someone there with you to help you and you need to ask for it. Ask again and again until someone does help you! In the meantime I want you to look at the picture of my Avatar - which looks a bit like I do in Real Life but I am a lot older! I want you then to close your eyes and keep the picture of me in your mind. I want to you take my hand - I am reaching out to you to hold your hand and I want you to take my hand and feel me holding your hand tightly. I want to help you feel a bit stronger. Take my hand. I am hugging you right now. Feel me hugging you - I want to give you the strength to ask for help. When I was 18 I felt in a lot of pain just as you feel now - so I really do understand. Please feel my hugs. Write down on three peices of paper "Feel like hurting/killing someone, helpp?" Then hold my hand once more and walk with me now just the few steps up to the teacher and pass the first peice of paper to your teacher. If they don't help you then walk out of class and go to the Head Teacher or another member of staff and pass the next peice of paper to the second person. If they don't help you go to a Doctor, Police station or Hospital and hand the third peice to them. Feel me with you the whole time holding your hand. If the first people don't help - try not to feel rejected or weaker - be determined to seek the help you need. Take my hand and walk to the next for help - try to feel stronger. Think to yourself - that person just did not understand my pain. Be more determined with the next one and keep on asking for help until you get help. I will be with you - thinking of you and holding your hand all the way! Big Hugs. Do it NOW!!

Hey there. I guess you badly need to share these feelings with someone. Someone you can trust, or someone who can give you professional help. It is good that you know these feelings are bad, which suggests to me that you are a good guy, just a bit messed up. As a good guy, you need to be strong and take action to deal with your feelings in a positive way. Harming others will only lead to more **** happening in your life. If people are talking about you, let them. You know you're a good guy so be confident about yourself. And ugly? Let me tell you, when I was your age I too thought that. As it happens I wasn't ugly but quite handsome to others. Hang in there my friend and do the right thing. Stay safe and cool now.

I'm gay, but I know what it's like to be scared of my feelings.