Why do I like to cut myself? Especially on the arm and now on leg?!

Why do I like to cut myself? Especially on the arm and now on leg?

I use to cut. I know it's definately not an easy thing to quit. I still have to fight the urges. It's been over 3 years now. Anyway, I agree with one of the other answers. I felt like I could lose it at any time and take it out on someone else, whether they deserved it or not. I didn't want to hurt anyone else, so I hurt myself. It was a major stress reliever. It was something that was mine, no one could take it away. I tried telling my dad once. Actually a friends mother did it for me. I found out he already knew. Idiot. He didn't care. My then boyfriend, now my husband, was the one that helped me out of it. Through him I learned that it was okay to verbalize what I was feeling, even if it meant pissing someone off. I guess I just had to realize that I didn't deserve what I was doing to myself. I began to see myself having a future. I didn't want cutting to be a part of that. I started sticking up for myself little by little. I quit letting people walk all over me, for the most part. Instead of holding everthing in and bleeding it out, I started talking about it. Even if it was just venting to my husband. It's not easy, but it can get better. I started cutting when I was 13. I'm now 25. I have been in and out of counseling for about 10 years. As a matter of fact, I just finished another 12 weeks of it. Like I said, it's not easy, at all to quit. But it's worth it. I didn't want that to be part of my future. I have 2 kids now and I really don't want them to see my scars. It has to be up to you to quit. You really should see a doctor or counselor before you end up seriously hurting yourself though. Do you want your future to revolve around this?