I am having a very hard time dealing with my multiple health conditions. I am in!

I am having a very hard time dealing with my multiple health conditions. I am in widespread pain.?

I have been diagnosed with hypothyroidism, fibromyalgia, manic depression, and lupus. I am not sure if the fibromyalgia is the lupus or if they are two separate conditions. I am very tired and in a lot of pain, all the time. I do well for myself. I have two jobs . My immediate family is wonderful. I couldn't be more blessed. The depression makes me feel guilty, I can't seem to accept the fact that my life is great and I feel so awful at times. Like death. I think part of me still has problems accepting depression as a real disease, even though I have sought treatment. Then there is the pain and fatigue. I just don't know what to do. I don't know which doctor to see. Everybody is a specialist but no one can figure out what to do with me. I am being treated for the thyroid with Synthroid and the depression with lamictal and sometimes paxil. Nothing for the pain, but I am about to go to another rhuematologist. All the pain meds make me sick and I can't work. I am feeling helpless.

Hi there! I'm no expert at medical conditions but I do feel that you need a support group that you can talk to especially if you are feeling depressed. You should not deal with this alone. You should have someone or a group where you can always share your feelings and who will give positive boost because life is beautiful and we will only go through it once so live it to the fullest in the positive way. Don't feel helpless because you still have all the powers in the world to make decisions to make your condition better. You say you have a wonderful family. Aren't they a strong force to keep you fighting? Aren't they worth all you strength to fight for? If so then keep on fighting and you will get your reward eventually. Believe and it will happen for you. If you need someone to talk to just contact me and I'll be there.