What is my boyfriends deal?!

What is my boyfriends deal?

We are in love for the first time... I am his first love, as he is mine. And I believe you truly fall in love one time, and this has got to be it for me. I can't imagine being with anyone else.

My boyfriend gets mad though at something that I have done in the past, which is... One night I was drinking with a guy friend of mine, and one thing led to the other and we had sex.
I honestly couldn't remember much of that night, but I was almost sure we had sex., so I asked him if we used a condom and he said no.. BAD DECISION for me to make, i know. I will not make love to my boyfriend unless it is protected. He gets upset that I did it with some other guy and I won't with him, someone that loves me. I know I made A mistake in that past, but i can't take that back. I am not ready to have a kid if it can be prevented, however if something did happen, I am willing to take care of our child ( Thats for those who will say not to have sex then.)

2 weeks ago
I WAS NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP AT THE TIME!

Well, first off... mistakes are made. If he truly loves you he needs to get over it. It's not like you cheated on him, and that incident has nothing to do with your current boyfriend. Most likely he is feeling incredibly insecure and hopes that by having sex it will magically make the relationship "ok." Before you two have sex of any kind, you need to really sit down together and discuss this issue. Ask him if there is something (within reason) that you can do to help alleviate this problem for him. I think he needs some reassurance that he is adequate for you in numerous ways. Again, keep your intuition about you and do what you personally feel is right. While you made a mistake, it really isn't his place to make you feel guilty about it. This is actually about you and what you did only. You learned a valuable lesson and you realize a bit more of what you can and can't handle about yourself.

Also, if you want to be sexually active and are about 17 - I really recommend getting birth control pills (they help with any annoying blemish problem that can crop up, plus help make you more regular, and they will prevent any accidents happening!) And still use birth control as well.

I also recommend getting STD tested just in case... so many of them are easily preventable if they are caught early. I know it's embaressing, but it will be more embaressing if you have waited to long and have to spend a life time of telling sex partners you have "x" STD. ;)

Good luck and keep strong!