Postpartum depresion or what? please help?!
Question: I am scared to death.Ive asked alot of questions on here,but now am really feel like its more than Postpartum Depression.I feel like I am literally going crazy.I cry all the time for no reason,insomnia at night,zombie during the day,loss of appetite,no interest in sex,paranoid and worried all day long,little things set me off and I snap very easily and get anger and sometimes feel violent,night and day mood swings,no self esteem or confidence, obcessive compulsive,scared all the time,forgetful,cant function ,headaches all day, I feel like my son doesnt know me, and know Im Mom or doesnt want me around, I always feel like such a bad Mom, Over protective of him, Im scared to let even his Dad with him if Im not around,Anti social, avoid people as much as possible, my body feels beat up, I get spurts of energy where I cant sit still, almost feels like something is trying to jump out of my body
i went to the doctor and he give me medication that i can take aas nedde but is not working!!
Answers: I am scared to death.Ive asked alot of questions on here,but now am really feel like its more than Postpartum Depression.I feel like I am literally going crazy.I cry all the time for no reason,insomnia at night,zombie during the day,loss of appetite,no interest in sex,paranoid and worried all day long,little things set me off and I snap very easily and get anger and sometimes feel violent,night and day mood swings,no self esteem or confidence, obcessive compulsive,scared all the time,forgetful,cant function ,headaches all day, I feel like my son doesnt know me, and know Im Mom or doesnt want me around, I always feel like such a bad Mom, Over protective of him, Im scared to let even his Dad with him if Im not around,Anti social, avoid people as much as possible, my body feels beat up, I get spurts of energy where I cant sit still, almost feels like something is trying to jump out of my body
i went to the doctor and he give me medication that i can take aas nedde but is not working!!
What you describe is all a lot of the normal feelings all new mom's have- though yours are a bit more on the severe side. Of course you are tired out, feel like a zombie, have no interest in food or sex. That's quite the little miracle you just pulled off, and it's taken the sap out of you doing it. Baby doesn't own a clock, and the demands on you are constant right now. Your son knows you, make no doubt about that. He's just too small yet to have much reaction to you yet, so it's normal to think you aren't getting through to him. Nothing like doing your best tap dance and getting that deadpan look in return. It's okay- dear. They all look like that. For the moment, quit worrying about life around you so much. Sleep when the baby sleeps, until you feel more rested. When those worried paranoid feelings strike- talk yourself through them. The baby's father is an excellent person to trust with your child, you loved him enough to make this baby with, and it's half his child too. He's not going to do anything to hurt your baby. He will do things differently than you, but that's okay. You are still newly postpartum. Your body is still recovering, and so are you. You are adapting to the idea of being mom, 24/7. That's an awesome and scary reality at first, but it does get easier as you get some more experience under your belt. Pretty soon, your baby is going to give you one of those great big toothless smiles, and it will all be 100% worth it all. I promise. I've been in your shoes four times now- and it does feel like you don't get through to them for a bit. But you are. Your baby loves you, honest. You are the most important person in his life, even if he can't say so yet. Take your medication, have some sleep. Ask if your mom or the father can take over for a while, and rest. Get some help around the house, and let it all go- the worry, the fear, the whole package. You are just feeling overwhelmed at the moment, and that's okay. Send out the call for help with house and baby, get some sleep. Get a decent meal in you, and quit worrying about all the rest. Once you physically feel more rested and recouperated, it will all fall into place. All of it. You aren't crazy. You are a new mom, feeling a bit overwhelmed at the moment. And no matter how bad things look, have a look at your little miracle there. That baby is quite an accomplishment, and really- none of the rest matters. Even God took a day off to rest, and he only worked a week. You worked nine months to create your baby- so I figure you are due at least a few weeks off.
This sounds like a very dangerous and scary situation for you and your family. It sounds very, very possibly like postpartum depression. Taking medication doesn't work alone much, take it from me. I'm surprised your doctor didn't tell you to see a psychiatrist. I would strongly recommend getting a referral to a good psychiatrist and getting an appointment as soon as you possibly can to get the care you need.
This kind of situation is extremely difficult, and the best thing to do is get help right away, before it gets even worse.
Please, please see a psychiatrist!!