Should i go doctors for this? please i need answers?!
Question: Should i go doctors for this? please i need answers?
Hello
I'm not sure if i'm too young to go doctors about this or not, but basically i'm 17, (almost). I think i do have some i don't even know what it is, my dad suffers with depression and has been on tablets for years and years now, he also suffers for extreme anger which he has taken out on me most of my life. Because of that i started self harming around the ages of 14 and went counseling. I am a Lesbian and had my first proper relationship at 15, that went on for a year and a bit and ended recently, it was an abusive and extremely controlling relationship though out the relationship i was emotionally abused, some sexual and then ended in some physical abuse, i wasn't allowed to go out see friends, in fact i lost my friends while in the relationship, i wasn't allowed out with out her permission and if i has self harmed something which i couldn't help at the time she would punish me because of that. The emotional abuse effected me most, i have no self confidence, and suffer extreme paranoia now, i'm scared all of the time, basically i believe that because of her its triggered something inside of me. I believe everyone hates me and is out to hurt me, in my mind, my life is a horror, that's how it feels weird as it sounds. Like i said i use to self harm anyway, but since being in such a controlling relationship with her, i have come out of it and i get down over the smallest of things, i can't get to sleep at night as and this is going to seem crazy but people are watching me, it's the same feeling that i have 4 people standing around me ready to hurt me and i can't get to sleep because of it, right now i feel as if someone is behind me and its not the feeling that i use to feel when people are watching it is actual real fright. I get scared i'm going to be hurt physically everyday. I get images of being killed, i cry a lot over stupid things and the anger i have inside of me is unreal. My head feels as if it going to explode with all the emotions that run around in side of it. When my family or someone i know is late back from something it's because i believe they are dead and i prepare myself for the news of their deaths. i constaltny feel that i'm failing overs, i hate my self, and want to make everyone happy but i never think i do. I just wish i was somebody else
I just don't know if i should go doctors about all this, i wouldn't know what to say and if they think i'm just being a stupid girl?
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well, to start, I'm sorry you've had such a rough time- that's a pretty horrible story.
I'm not sure what all a doctor can do for you, at least not a medical doctor. I would try intense counseling though, it sounds like you really need to talk to someone you can trust, which would be a counselor. someone out of your daily norm, someone who you can start a fresh relationship with, as counselor and patient. A good psychologist should be able to help you a lot :-) good luck, I hope it all gets better for you
~my advice~
Talk about what has happened with a counselor.
sounds like AIDS
No-one is going to think you're a stupid girl! Please do seek help, it will only get worse if you don't, and you will suffer even more! As for what to say, just explain to them what has happened and how much you are suffering, they can really help and make you feel better. Doctors and other medical professionals are there for a reason! Go!
First of all, absolutely no medical professional is going to think you're being a "stupid girl" for being proactive in your own heath care. If you feel you could benefit from seeking help, there is absolutely no reason not to. Just be honest with them. If nothing else it sounds like you could benefit from having a professional to discuss these things with.