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Ok , I don't know much about anorexia, but maybe you can help me. I think i am semi-anorexic. I think about being anorexic all the time and seeing ppl like on youtube saying I had anorexia && stuff. I wish I was them. I mean like I wish I had there life. I am not overweight nor underweight, yet. I am 13 4'10 and 68lbs. I think it would be so great to be anorexic..&& its not to be blamed by the media. I would never wanna be Nicole Richie. I wanna be like ppl who have anorexia and arent famous. I have to make sure I am still the same weight in the morning afternoon or night. Or i will stop eating, but not completetly. I make sure My ribs still show in my stomach, if they dont I think right away..I am fat!
I do see myself in the mirror with big flabby thighs and big arms, everyone says My legs are sticks and you can see bones in my back. I dont get it I can never see myself the way I wanna be seen. What do i have?
Am i semi-anorexic??

2 weeks ago
I cry my heart out b/c ppl call me fat

2 weeks ago
&& THEY DONT CALL ME FAT IN A SARCASTIC WAY

Are your parents aware of this? Talk with them and a school counselor or trusted teacher. Do you want to have children, get married and have a career someday? Or is the only thing that means anything to you is being thin? Think these questions thoroughly before answering. Then read the death toll of Anorexia Nervosa and think if you want a future or just to be thin.

I know this because I am a "recovered anorexic." I now am 38 years old and moderately overweight (but happy!) because my metabolism is unkeeled from years of starvation. Guess what, I only grew to be 4'11" and think it was from lack of nutrition, genetics in my family are tall females and in pictures I look adopted. I can't believe I starved myself for so many years for what? A missed teenage period because mine was focused on being a size 1 and almost dying because of it. I now have a wonderful life and great family and have my family to thank for picking up the cues that I wasn't eating and eventually pulling me off my bedroom floor and bringing me to the hospital. Talk with your family, it really isn't worth it anymore! Think of the fun you're missing with friends and are putting it into starving yourself and focusing on your ribs in a mirror when you could be out having a fun time with friends and maybe dating! Life isn't about looks it's about experiences. Go out and have some and while you're at it try some new adventurous foods with your friends! Have a slumber party but no looking at your ribs, have fun!