Is she a virgin?Had I mad a tragedy?!

Is she a virgin?Had I mad a tragedy?

First,I need to explain,I am in a poor,developing country,so we are traditional,we worship chastity from old ancient to now in the bone. In our country,at least 99% men still have the thick virgin bond,so have I.
The diva is 18 years old now,I am 24,and she was born in the same village with me,a poor,backward,inconvenient mountainous area,The distance between her blighty and mine is not over 500 metres. Her prarents and mine are all simpleminded farmers in one smeede(an administrant unit under village),of course they are very familiar in an old original rural village. Though my family is poor,I am fortunate,I am clever and diligent in study,later I entered the university and gained a diploma,because of high education,I found a nice occupation,white collar,with a nice income. But she is not so lucky,she educated after junior high school,then went to a plant of far city for manual working,with low wage.

2 weeks ago
In the labor's day last year I and the diva had a traditional blind date before engagement in the charge of woman matchmaker. We agreed with each other,In the New year Festival,we betrothed for marriage,I gave her family much money as monetary gifts, The money correspond to serveral incomes for a common people in our country, that meant she was my formal fiancee from then on. On March 24 this year,she followed me and went to my work city which belong to a big flourishing city in southern together.

2 weeks ago
The first night in my house,she didn't be will to sleep with me in one bed, she slept in the sofa in the hall,not bedroom(my house has only a central room with one sofa, a bedroom with one bed,it is rented). I think,perhaps she was conservative and fine, I can comprehend. Same thing happend the next night, and I can't bear on the 3rd night, I brought her to my bed forcibly and ignored her struggle. Since she is my fiancee,and we were in one bed,of course I wanna have sexual intercourse,but she still opposed try her hard,whatever I do, I can't undress her jupe and long trousers all the time,I failed,I gave in that night.

2 weeks ago
So I was thinking,"why did she do that? Is there any weird,secret evnets hidding behind her body? Is she not a virgin? And she want to wait for the menstruation to make love with me so that to kid me?" Therefore,I can't get sleep all the night. The 4th night she was little more merciful,and she was willing to unbrace her bras and let me touch her breasts,but still didn't want to ML with me. The anger in my heart accumulated for days bursted eventually,I scold her,"Get out,Since you do not make love with me, why promise my espousal?",She left the bed,sat on the sofa,wept,and said nothing.

2 weeks ago
The 5th night,she is still so obstinate and stalwart,but I changed my strategy,I did't demand just after we went bed,I suddenly took off all her clothings in the mid-night during her sleep-muddled status, I tried to insert my penis into her vagina,but it is little difficult. At last,I found some feeling,I think perhaps I had aimed the hole,ready to go deep into,but she suddenly pushed me away,So I failed again,I am bored,but have no choice but to sleep.

2 weeks ago
The 6th night,I performed the same story in the mid-night,this time she discarded defending,and I entered very successfully,I feel tight,dry in her
vagina,but still very comfortable, I moved up and down, later I gained the orgasm and end the intercourse. The next morning,while she was washing face,the
first important thing to me to do is to see whether she bleeded the blood under bedsheet,the result is very disappointed, I saw nothing.
Becuase of this reason, I am very sad all the day, I asked if she made love with any other boy ever,she declined to answer me,only cried. For can't get answer from her mouth,I began to suspect her past，she is not a chaste virgin,this is a insult to me.

2 weeks ago
The 6th night,I performed the same story in the mid-night,this time she discarded defending,and I entered very successfully,I feel tight,dry in her
vagina,but still very comfortable, I moved up and down, later I gained the orgasm and end the intercourse. The next morning,while she was washing face,the
first important thing to me to do is to see whether she bleeded the blood under bedsheet,the result is very disappointed, I saw nothing.
Becuase of this reason, I am very sad all the day, I asked if she made love with any other boy ever,she declined to answer me,only cried. For can't get answer from her mouth,I began to suspect her past，she is not a chaste virgin,this is a insult to me.

2 weeks ago
Due to this unpleasant case and her unsocial,incommunicative personality,I abandoned her,we teared up our marriage engagement, she went to that old plant to be a common manual woker in another city alone,and I still stayed in my work city. I remember I ever asked whether she will hate me,she said she will not,she also said she wanna be suicide,that made me very worry, In case she dead or disappeared,how can I face my parents and hers? And I dare not go my old home in the village again later. But fortunately she didn't do that.
At it happens,i.e. that our broken day is April 1, Subsequently, she send a sms message to me,"why god so fool me?",and I sent too,"Is you fool me or I fool you on earth?"

2 weeks ago
Her elder sister-in-law later told me in MSN(a IM software),she was in that factory too,she know abort her young sister-in-law very much,she is a
conservative，restrained girl,and I mistook her. While heared about this,I am astonished, I am regret,but I know the spilt water cannot be gathered up again,
I have the dignity of man.
Is she a virgin? Had I mad a tragedy?

Educated your are not because to have a woman is to love one for any reason and then she will you.
I'm guessing you'll not be with another for a long long time.