What could this be? Could it be depression?!

What could this be? Could it be depression?

Ok so im 22 years old , I have a 4 year old and a 3 month old. You would think I would lead a happy life, I have a wonderful husband whom is so good to me, When I was about 13 I was diagnosed with depression, they thought it pretty much went away and pills didnt do anything, My mom has to take pills, Its seem I started to get worse after I got pregnant. Since I got pregnant and now after and my baby being 3 months, I am so moody, unpleasant. I feel really guilty, I yell at my 4 year old and hubby for nothing, I have NO patiance, imalways extremely annoyed and irriated. I feel tired and lazy all the time. I get so tense and angry. I feel so bad for it, I almost cry after yelling at my poor baby who is 4 and going to get into touble and get into things she shouldnt be. Why am i being so mean, what could it be? Im worried about get on pills, I dont want them to total effect my life, I hate feeling like this, Does pills really change this? Is it depression? Please give me your experiance!

2 weeks ago
im worried because i hear stories that people on a anti depressant, if they forget to take it they go crazy. I dont know what to do. I feel like I lose my mind, my arms get so tense where I feel like im going to spank my daughter.l I dont, i just walk away, but Im really worried. Please help me!! I would never do anything to hurt anyone or myself. but I just have having this feeling of emptyness and guilt.

Do you sleep well? Wakefulness/inability to sleep/insomnia is among the early signs of depression. It seems that you are in a worse condition. You need professional help. Please see a counselor who can objectively evaluate if you need a psychiatrist who will prescribe drugs. Sometimes, all you need is someone who will listen intently to your angst.
As for using drugs to control depression, I have a good friend who was on anti-depression meds for 22 years. She was never addicted to them and her doctor made sure she was safe at all times. She is now 50+ years old and is OFF the anti-depression medication. There is nothing to fear. If you really need them to have a normal family life, you will prefer to take them rather than lose what you have now.
God bless you.