Can someone offer some insight please?!
Question: I'm a 20 year old female college student, who has a myriad of problems. I was brutally sexually abused as a young child, raped during high school, and have a "wonderful" addiction to harming myself. I do believe the addiction is due to my past; but I've been in counselling since I started high school (before the rape) and I haven't noticed much difference other than I no longer have suicide attempts. I want to begin to feel better about myself; and potentially find someone else in whom I can confide; someone who is there to listen to me from time to time but in an non-therapist way. I just really don't know what to do anymore; but I want to start feeling better; and I want to feel better about myself. I hate myself for the pain I've allowed myself to be caused and I cannot handle this pain anymore... What do I do!? Any suggestions on things I can do to help, or people I could possible talk to?
Answers: I'm a 20 year old female college student, who has a myriad of problems. I was brutally sexually abused as a young child, raped during high school, and have a "wonderful" addiction to harming myself. I do believe the addiction is due to my past; but I've been in counselling since I started high school (before the rape) and I haven't noticed much difference other than I no longer have suicide attempts. I want to begin to feel better about myself; and potentially find someone else in whom I can confide; someone who is there to listen to me from time to time but in an non-therapist way. I just really don't know what to do anymore; but I want to start feeling better; and I want to feel better about myself. I hate myself for the pain I've allowed myself to be caused and I cannot handle this pain anymore... What do I do!? Any suggestions on things I can do to help, or people I could possible talk to?
Have you seeked professional help?Does anyone know about all this?This is VERY IMPORTANT stuff that professionals need to know about so that they can help you.Do your relatives know?You need to hire a psychologist,therapist and start to go to a mental health center so that they can perscribe you some mood disorder medicene(I'm not trying to be mean) so that your anxiety and depression will go away.It really helps.Try to ask them if you can take lamictal.It is very important that you do the stated above.You can do it.Good luck!
p.s. pray to your god for help.It works!
You need to stay in counseling.
And find a friend who will listen to you.
If you are connected to a church, you can always seek one of the clergy.
Get a dog. It sounds weird, but I find it very comforting to talk to mine. I don;t have any crazy illusions that he is "listening" to me in any analytical way. But, he doesn't interrupt, and he gives me boundless affection.
It might sound odd, but I do derive a lot of comfort from him.
So. Animal or human, you need a friend who will listen to you, honey. Just someone to be there and not criticize.
Good luck, dear.
find somthing u really like and fallow ur dreams dont let the past get in the way of the present what happened has happened and dont let that stop u.maybe u will find someone just doing what u love to do
I don't know if you are in the USA or UK but this link might give you a bit of an understanding of why people self harm.
Your doctor would be a good place to start and I know you said you don't want to but a therapist would be able to help you because they are specially trained in this area. You could try speaking to a lecturer at your college if you feel comfortable with one in particular. Good luck
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i went threw such abuce as a child also.i suffered from depression and wanted to die..i got help from the hospital the docktor gave me meds,later i recieved some thariopy this helped more than enything. learning to forgive youre self and realiseing that you could not stop this and you did nothing to couse this person to do this to you. and learning to forgive the ofinder is the hardest thing to do.but it must be done for youre sake not his/hers holding grudges and hateing only hurts the one doing the hateing, hurt peaple tend to want to lash out and hurt others. wrighting about youre fealings and experiances is a great way to vent.my churtch has groupe thariopy with the guidance of a cirtifyed thariopest we listen to each other and offer feed back, and we are not allowed to talk about enyones issues outside of that circle.i think something like this would do you a worald of good....counceling is differant from thariopy,and a shrink and a thariopest are differant. if you just need meds go to a shrink if you need thariopy see a thariopest. i would be happy to listen to you and be a friend to you over the computor if you like. i hope atleast something in this helps some. andysmallbear at yahoo.
Possible resources.