How to feel 'normal' when normal was lost long time ago?!
Question: i dont know how to put this, without sounding like some unstable loon, im a mum, i have 2 beautiful lil gals, but ( im crying just putting this into words) I honestly do not know where im at, its seems neverending, i know u may say go docs get help, been thr done it, im on anti depressants nw, was a heroin addict from 13 to21, got pregnant and stopped it all, but now i feel kinda lost like ive been left drifting, in this huuuge sea of mist and doubt. i dunno what i even want you to answer, just how can i feel norml when normal was lost at 12?
Answers: I wish I could give you a hug right now. You sound incredibly sad, but I also hear some strength. I have been both where you are and where you were so many years ago. My heart goes out to you. The best and most heartfelt suggestion I can make to you is to go to an AA or NA meeting. It doesn't sound like you've tried a program of recovery, even though you're chemical free. You stll have to deal w/ all the emotional stuff that you basically pickled w/ the dope, because the feelings and issues that had you using, if they don't get resolved, honey, someday you will use again. Go to meetings. Try one a day for 90 days. If the kids are an issue, take them with you. The people in the rooms understand what it's like. Coloring books and snacks will help, and it's only for an hour at most.
I wish you very, very good things.