I need counciling but i don't dare go to a doctors?!

You know what!? The one big step that everybody misses is to validate you right where you are!. We all tend to just start advising, but I will tell you one of the most important things you have done in this whole day is to write down exactly how you are feeling and being honest about it and posting here on Yahoo! Answers!. Look how many answers you're getting already!. This is called reaching out!. It is called connecting!. It is called helping yourself get better!. You are doing this yourself because you told us what is bothering you!. We always have to validate a person first for having the courage to tell us how he is really feeling!. You have already summed up the courage!. Look, here I am at 64 years old, sitting in my room here as the sun is going down in South Portland, Maine, U!.S!.A!., with the wind creating a nice breeze, it is 79

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