I have a weird fear, is this crazy?!

i think it is rather interesting, not weird... maybe in your past life you were a log and now your body is just surprised of what you can do now

i havent experienced this personally but i hav seen it happen my dad used to do crack and it had that effect on him. but for u it could be that your surpressing your emotions and need to let them out or find a more satisfying career or situation. my dad now has a job no longer does crack and looks and feels way better :)

Personal Experience

If you have a good therapist I would talk to that individual about your problem. He/she will be able to recognize a potential mental illness and decide if therapy or medication is needed. Based on your list of symptoms it could be an anxiety type disorder like Generalized Anxiety Disorder which is an anxiety primarily focused on life problems or anxieties that have no logical reasoning for being anxious. It could be panic attacks, drug induced anxiety, depression, bi-polar disorder, or a phobia of being alive or human. Phobias are irrational fears that literally illicit the fight and flight response to a stimulus or environment that is not really dangerous at all.
There are people that have phobias based on living or awareness of self that elicits fear and helplessness.
To answer your question about being crazy. I don't really know if you are or not. Most likely no probably not. There are many people that suffer from severe anxiety disorders, personality disorders, impulse disorders, and even people who have schizophrenia and severe psychosis that are functioning people of society with proper medication and management. Clinical insanity is not based on an individual but more the behaviors, mental patterns and changes in behavioral patterns that deem them a threat to society or a deviance from the norm.

There are a lot of things to be said to you but if they got voted down it is going to keep anyone from telling you about life other than the usual platitudes that are acceptable to the players . Life is a struggle and without a coach to tell you what a friend should you can not possibly guess what all is at stake. Instant messaging is fine but the days of the chat rooms are over because of hackers. So the only thing left is the slower emails . It is plenty good for getting the advice you need and the waiting time is actually better for all concerned to write and edit thoroughly. When we get upset our sentences structure can be too loose to be understood well enough.