I just want to cut my red!?!
Question: I just want to cut my red!?
I cut myself a lot now because of him. I feel so hopeless.
But I was depressed before (family reasons. My mum says she hates her life. I was forced to grow up at an early age and don't have time to be normal and I'm too busy with other things like cleaning the dishes to try to please my mom). But now it's worse. But not just because of HIM.
I cut myself five times a day or more. I told my counselor about the cutting. They're trying to get outside hel but are having some
trouble.
What do I do? I don't want to live without him. No, not even. I just want him to at least think of me. I feel so stupid and selfish.
And I am religious and pray and everything so don't tell me God is the answer.
And it's not that I think he's perfect. It's that I see his flaws and that's what makes him far better than all the f?cking irresponsible creeps that ask me out.
Answers:
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Being religious isn't going to do a thing. It's a relationship with Jesus that will change your life.
Don't do it. Find stuff to take up your time and get your mind on something else. Get involved. Volunteer. Look at all the positive things in life. Get a pet. Suicide is not the answer.
Don't get suicidal. Please. There are other ways to cope. Get help. Call hotlines. They WILL help you, and maybe even your mother.
I suggest you call a help line, or go to your local emergency room and tell them you are suicidal. If your Mum won't help you call a friend or even 911. It sounds like life is really difficult for you with all the work you do and trying to please your mother. It's common to turn to turn to coping methods like self harm and obsessions with celebrity's, ETC. There is definitely help for you out there and you can recover, it will take a while and some hard work, but it's so worth it. Don' give up!