iv'e tried suicide but it's getting worse?!
Question: Iv'e tried suicide but it's getting worse?
I take a lot of what people say about me, i take everything to heart. My dad hates me after what iv'e done he said " we have a daughter who tried to kill her self obviously she didn't do a good enough job ".. i hate who i see in the mirror an fat idiot, i smashed all my mirror's and from my happy/sad moods all the time iv'e damaged friendship's and hurt my self over it.
Iv'e tried overdoes's and now, iv'e cut myself but i was ready to hang my self the other day but my mum was up stairs, i don't want to hurt her i love her so much, ( crying now ) and i don't want her to feel upset but, if she want's me happy why let me stay here and be horrible or be somwhere far from here? i love everybody so much! but, i feel i'm at at breaking point.
The hanging thing is 4th try at it, and i get paper and draw blood and write in that, i dont eat or sleep if i do its horrible. i have the same dream every night i feel trapped in my body i hate who i see :'( and i can't stop crying, im flooding tears out typing this :'(
why me ? why do i have mood swings?!? i course pain in people's life and i don't intend to :'(
Answers:
You do need to be in an inpatient setting at this time. Your moods are very unstable and that is an indication that you really need the assistance of someone who has been trained in the mental health field of medicine.
You state that you love your mother and do not want to hurt her. By the act of trying to hang yourself, you are going to cause her a tremendous amount of grief when you do succeed.
Try to accept the help that your loved ones wish you to have. They are only looking out for you and trying to show their love in the only way that they can.
Do try to accept the help that they want to give you.
The longer you wait, the more difficult life will be. Please reach out to them for help.