Im tired of being bipolar!!!?!

Im tired of being bipolar!!!?

my baby daddy and i have been on and off for the last 4 years all of sudden today he told me that he doesnt want to see me anymore because im crazy. which really i am in a way but i take my medicne now and i dont rage and fight him anymore. am i wrong or is it when im trying to get my life together he's really messed up for leaving me. he says he just cant take me anymore he needs to be free to live his life with someone who is normal. im so depressed right now im tempted to go do drugs i been clean for about 4 months somone any one help me!!! should i just get over him and move on he is my first and only love i've loved him so long i dont even know how to talk to other guys. i feel that no one else will love me i havent been this depressed in along time the last time it was this bad i attempted suicide i dont want to go there again but i have such a hard time being sad:( i cant tell this to my therapist she'll just put me back in the crazy house.

Honey, your boyfriend is just using the low blow of saying your crazy, just because he wants out. Don't second guess your sanity when you know you've improved. Don't start doing drugs over a breakup , you've come so far! Congrats!! And you have a child, that alone is reason enough to stay clean Not easy, never said that, but good reason, ok? Bipolar doesn't make you a crazy person, it's a mood disorder. I have anxiety and depression and take meds, so I don't go off the deep end. At one time , my "dark place" was so black I wanted to die too! And the depression you feel about your man is real emotion. But anytime a bipolar symptom appears, your thinkin'"Here I go again." Right? Talk to your therapist and tell her what's going on . Tell her you feel so down and fearful. That's not grounds to commit you. And getting back in the game of dating will happen, just let yourself heal over this guy first. Take time for YOU!! First loves are always the hardest, so don't be so tough on yourself. Focus on your positives..your clean and sober..your meds are makin' the connections..you have a child..you feel a calmer you emerging...Time will tell with your guy..he might be afraid of the new improved you, ever think of that? Keep taking those baby steps one hour, one day at a time. hugs to you! oooooooooooo