Are you ever in denial about whether you're depressed or not?!

Are you ever in denial about whether you're depressed or not?

I don't think I am, but every once in a while I just lay on my bed and stare up at the cielling. It's as if I'm sleeping with my eyes open...lost in no thought. I don't know...at times I'm happy, but when I'm by myself I start to think, and it just makes me unhappy. What to do if you're in this situation? I don't feel right, and don't tell me this is natural, it's not natural. Lately, I've even started to talk to myself. I can't tell if I'm actually talking, or if I'm talking to myself in my head. If you don't feel like answering here, you can email me at queenazooga@yahoo.com, or whatever. Just...help me.

Yes, I was in denial about being depressed. I would have crying spells everyday before going to work (I like my job - so I'm not sure why that was the trigger), I was unable to sleep, I would get irritated easily, etc. It took my oldest daughter asking me why I cry so much to wake me up and go see a physician. I have been on my medication for only a month, but I can see a significant change in everything (for the better).