Could this be because of my medicine?!

Could this be because of my medicine?

So, I'll try to make this as detailed and short as possible:

I was diagnosed with Manic Depression/ Bipolar Depression (type II, I believe. Also, I'm OCD) 7 or 8 years back. I've gone through tons of physchiatrists and doctors and through those years have constantly changed my medicine (topomaz, zoloft, prozac, etc). Nothing seemed to work. Finally, I got off medication all together (except for some ADD medicine), I started volunteering and doing charities and interning for an elementary teaching job. I sound like a pretty nice person, huh?

Well, this past September, I had a terrible breakup. All my symptoms were intesified and I went back to my doctor for help. He prescribed me Lexapro. He also changed my ADD medicine to Concerta, but that made me lose sleep, so he gave me Ambien.

I started a new relationship with someone, and it was great for months and then I started becoming impuslive and incredibly selfish. I stopped volunteering, laid around the house...

4 weeks ago
I started commiting terrible atrocities in this relationship.

Finally, I stopped taking all my medicine, and I'm becoming more of myself.

I don't want to blame all of the terrible things I did on the medicine, but this just seems to coincidental.

I am going to see my physchiatrist later this summer, but I just have to know for peace of mind. Despite no medical degree, what do ya'll think?

Medicine? Or me?

4 weeks ago
One more thing: Some of the terrible things that were brought to my attention I was unaware of. He had the proof, but I honestly couldn't remember anything of it. I fessed up and told the truth about what I could remember, but it's scary to think I was oblivious to some of these things.

4 weeks ago
Jeez...this just keeps getting longer haha. My doctor changed my ADD medicine from Adderal (which, obviously, made me speed and anxious) to Concerta.

Medicine affects people differently. Yours may be a combination of things. Possibly, he should not have changed your ADD medicine. What were the reasons for this?

I have been dealing with depression for years. It is getting better. Some helpful hints. Stop laying around the house, get out, do some activities, exercise, eat 6 well balanced portions a day, meet new people talk to family and friends, sunlight is good for depression, music, dancing, doing something just for you, study and apply positive thinking and self control. Live, Laugh, Love and enjoy life a bit.

You do not need a significant other in your life. You need to do things to make you happy with yourself. Also, don't put off going to that counselor.

Edit: Does your psychiatrist counsel you also? Most of the time they just give medication, in my experience. You need a counselor. I agree with the 1st answer. As far as I don't think Mead's can cause you to be selfish. That is more than likely, because of something you are or have been going through. There is nothing wrong with doing or having things for yourself. It's when you are hurtful to others. Or not giving as well as taking. That it is a problem. I would think this is a personality disorder. If not I'm sure it is because of something you're holding back.