What is wrong with me?!

What is wrong with me?

Where should I start?

I feel like my hormone levels are completely out of control. I cry, laugh, get angry, cry again. One tiny thing my boyfriend does (or doesnt do) will set me into this whole thing and I want to argue or 'make him' understand my side. I turn things around on him.

Ive never been treated for any mental health anything. My mom is a nurse at the hospital I want to go to - but I dont want my mom talking to me about it or anything.

I feel like my relationship is crumbling and Im going crazy. Like right now - I feel like crying. Why? No reason!

Who should i talk to first? Am I losing my mind? I dont want to push my soon to be fiance away from me.

I used to be/still am that fun funny girl who likes to be spontaneous but i feel like Im turning into the weepy ***** that people are afraid to approach.

1 month ago
p.s. Im 23 years old

first thing's first, start a journal. bring a small tape recorder around with you if you talk to yourself, you can use that as therapy in the car. You sound overwhelmed. If you're actually planning the wedding then there's plenty of reason to feel overwhelmed right there. Take note of when you start to lose it and try to figure out why you're losing it. Remember that you are in control of your emtions and not hte other way around.

If you feel yourself starting to get all weepy try to control it ... Tell yourself, I could cry now, but it's not a good time. I will make time for myself to cry in (30 minutes? hours? seconds?). This will allow you to begin controlling your feelings instead of the other way around. You should still find someone to talk to. If you don't want to talk to your mom about it then tell her that. If she starts to talk to you about it, be kind but be firm. This is not what you want out of the treatment. Perhaps that will change, but today, that's the way it is.

All the Best!