How can I stop myself from purging all the time??!
Question: I've been throwing up for so long. I binge and purge all the time, and I feel awful and guilty for doing it. I mean, think about all the other people who are dying of starvation - and then there's me: eating a bunch of cupcakes and puking them up again. I pretty much hate myself. I started doing it to lose weight, I know I'm not like-- obese, but I really need to be 110 again. I am so sick and I know, but I am afraid to try to get better, even though every day I tell myself: "Okay, today you will just eat under 1000 calories, only fruits and veggies and stuff." And then every day I end up trying to puke up the apple, and then I figure "Oh whatever." And I give in. I am so disgusting. What about the starving people in Africa??? I hate this. Bulimia is the worst thing that could ever happen to a person. I seriously don't know how to stop it. Please help me. :(
Answers: I've been throwing up for so long. I binge and purge all the time, and I feel awful and guilty for doing it. I mean, think about all the other people who are dying of starvation - and then there's me: eating a bunch of cupcakes and puking them up again. I pretty much hate myself. I started doing it to lose weight, I know I'm not like-- obese, but I really need to be 110 again. I am so sick and I know, but I am afraid to try to get better, even though every day I tell myself: "Okay, today you will just eat under 1000 calories, only fruits and veggies and stuff." And then every day I end up trying to puke up the apple, and then I figure "Oh whatever." And I give in. I am so disgusting. What about the starving people in Africa??? I hate this. Bulimia is the worst thing that could ever happen to a person. I seriously don't know how to stop it. Please help me. :(
Jen, if you are really doing this, it is very dangerous, and you need to talk to a counselor who can help you stop. I'm sure if your parents knew, they would freak, and if you haven't let on to them at home that you're doing this, I can sympathize with you (if you're living at home with them). However, there has to be someone at school you can talk to, if you're in school--a guidance counselor, a nurse, or maybe a peer group, if you're in college. You're letting the guilt feelings about starving people get through to you, but what is more important is the literally life-threatening practice that bingeing and purging is. Once it's a habit, it's very hard to just break by yourself and feeling guilty only makes you feel worse. You can get in touch with trained professionals who specialize in eating disorders, which are not uncommon. It's a very easy trap to fall into, so you're not alone, and you won't be alone when you try to get help. Awareness about eating disorders in women is a major concern now, and there are plenty of therapists and counselors out there who don't want to see any more women die from bulimia or anorexia. These few websites are good places to start, and you've already made a good start by asking for help on Yahoo! Answers. Best of luck to you, it sounds like you already have the motivation to stop, and save yourself. Now you just need the right means.
By forcibly fasting every other day!
Oh gosh. Yes this is a problem. First dont hate yourself. THere a plenty of greedy fatso's that eat 9 times what you eat.
Have you told a friends first? A few years ago I went through a phase of trying to skinny down. Firstly I went on a diet and told a friend of mine she helped me cut the snacks however, I started making myself sick cause it wasn't working. She noticed and she helped me stop. I know its really daunting telling a parent, adult, teacher or doctor so I'm not saying you have to but if you can...
Or of course you could get help like a internet buddy. Who could help you through this difficult time.
Or even do you know someone say in the year above who has eating disorders? Remember eating disorders can include simply over eating! Why not try and find them -- you can help each other.
I could be your internet buddy if you like.
capitalme@hotmail.com
I hope this help...just remember dont feel stressed or upset. Concentrate on getting better.
Check yourself in for medical treatment immediately!
Do not allow this to become an even bigger problem, or next time, it could be too late!
Hey, i understand where you are right now, i'm recovering from anorexia right now. I know the hell.
The best thing you could do is to find professional help, bite through your pride and ask for help.
If you don't feel you can do that, i have a few tips.
1. First challenge your behaviour. Why do you NEED to be 110lbs? Do other people really want to see you getting sick? wouldn't they prefer you were healthy? Why do you want to purge good, nutritious food? etc.
2. Change your vocabulary; a binge neccessarily leads to a purge and carries guilt with it. If you call that extra apple or even chocolate a treat, you may find some of the guilt is removed.
3. If you're only eating 1000 cals a day, you're setting yourself up to binge because your body will be starving by the end of the day and you're more likely to give into temptation, try and increase your intake a bit - you can still lose weight on 1500cals a day!
4. Throw away junk food that leads you to binge, i always used to find if i had one chocolate that was it, i had to eat everything in sight cus i'd blown it. I ate beyond when i felt full. If you don't have junk foods, you can't binge on them and a binge on fruit and veg is nowhere near as bad as a junk binge.
hope this helps xxx
I have been bulimia for about 17 years, and because of it, I have spent so much money on my teeth its unreal, because the acid from your stomach eats the enamel on your teeth that protects them, when the enamel is gone you have nothing to protect them. Also most bulimia's don't lose weight, because if your body isn't getting the nutrition as it needs, it will take it from your muscles, not your fat. Therefore I found a doctor that helped me understand the power of protein, I started this protein plan eating about a month and a half ago and lost 25 lbs already. My muscles are tightening up and my fat is just melting off my body. I never feel "tired full" or hungry. I'll share this little secret also, when you wake up in the morning and don't eat anything that has to do with bread or sugar, your body wont crave it but if you give your body just a little taste of it, your going to crave it and want it then feel guilty after you ate it ALL and throw it up and still be hungry. Feel free to email me whenever you want to. I can give you tips on the diet also.
Good luck sweety!
Why is it you force those skinny 110 pound standards on yourself? Ask yourself why you have to be 110 pounds. If it's to impress someone, then you should stop because if someone likes you, they should like your personality first and foremost. Nobody is perfect. You should consider eating healthy and being satisfied with what you eat. If you're eating an apple a day, why puke it up? The last thing it's going to do is make you fat, if anything, it'll make you healthy and strong.
Hiya
Im goin through the same thing.
I read this book saying its all about the mind ect.
Like EG: If you think your going to lose weight u will lose it.
Bulimia is horrible =[ Ive had it since I was 9, and I do get very annoyed sticking my head were people have crapped.
Start a dairy. Write in it your plan for tmmorow and stick to it.
I understand about the 'oh whteva' thing, its vry easy to give up and think Oh ****.
If your tryin to lose weight, we could do it together if u lke?
Just mail me.
Like today this is wht im goin to eat
* Two rounds of whole meal toast with jam (200kcal)
One Hot sweetened cofeewith 50ml of milk (30kcal)
*Jacket spud with sunflowerspread (107)
and cucumber n salad (50 ish)
* An Orange Large (73) Vegtable soup(95)
If u say im ONLY goingg to eat such and such ur mind will be rebeling. Have a varied diet plan.
I know its hard, but remember Im goin through the same thing. so Im nt one of those preachers hu dont no wth there talking about.
Bulimia is a disease of self loathing as well.
and i no ur feel guilty about the afican children,so do i, but theres nothin much we can do =[
Take care
If you need to talk , just mail me okay?
luv
Enola
xx
I used to purge everyday, sometimes two or three times a day. I then told my best friend who sent me emails all the time about how great I was and how I didn't need to be skinny because I had people that loved me. That made me realize that being skinny wasn't everything, and that wasn't the only option for me to lose weight. I then cut down to doing it once every other day or two days. I tried to busy myself with friends and family so I would be too busy to purge. What I'm trying to say is, you should find a hobby or tell someone. Because the more you talk about it the more you realize how bad it is for you and what it's really doing to you. If you keep it in your head you'll always tell yourself "Oh it's fine, I'm okay" but if you tell a loved one they'll help you realize that it's not okay and you need to stop because it'll kill you some day. Find a hobby, take your mind off of it, eat healthy, stop buying cupcakes, ANYTHING to help you stop! And don't hate yourself, LOVE yourself! You're a beautiful woman with beautiful curves, and you look amazing.
Now I only do it 2-3 times a week, soon I'll never have to worry about bulimia again. It's hard, but you CAN get over it. Good luck!
I totally understand how you feel; ashamed, insecure and ugly. Plus, you probably don't want to go and ask someone close to you for help, because it's embarrassing and will change how they see you, right?
But, this is a serious medical condition. You are destroying your metabolism and could end up causing permanent damage to your body. When you eat anything, right now, your body takes it and stores up as much as it possibly can. You are actually making it harder for your body to shed those extra pounds. You need some medical attention; grab a friend or someone you can trust and go see a doctor. This is not something you can just quit, like smoking. It's something that takes time and help to fix. Only once your body has its metabolism back in check, and ONLY THEN, should you start to worry about dieting and losing weight.
What do you gain by trying to lose this weight? Do you really think that a kind, sensitive guy would ever care about whether you are skinny or not? My guy friends all agree that they would rather date someone who's obese than someone who is anorexic or bulimic. If anyone expects you to be a twig, they are not the kind of people you want to know. And if that person is you, you need to grow up and get a reality check. Love who you are and your body, and others will too.
Get back to me when you get going...I'd love to chat or just listen to you for a while ^_^.
cut yourself some slack. maybe try to think back to a day, even if it was only a single day out of the whole year, when you didn't binge and purge, and think of how you did it. try eating a cupcake first, slowly, and see how much you enjoy it. learn to eat food because you're hungry and it tastes good, and that will take cupcakes off their pedestal, and maybe even put some healthy things that taste good higher on your list. easier said than done though, right? also, think about how you view other's bodies. especially guys, if that's who your interested in. do you really care if he has a 6-pack or giant biceps? i personally don't give a damn how in shape a guy is as long as he's goodlooking and has that twinkle in his eye, so i try to imagine that people will cut me that same slack. i think it's a long road back though...good luck and wish me the same because sometimes i feel like i'm in the same boat